frankly honestly, a little vent :)
i hate doing my work last minute, especially knowing that i had a lot of time to work on it. and the safe family gathers that were planned every other day didn’t help me since i would come back at a late time and wake up during the afternoon feeling extremely unmotivated to do anything.
i really hate knowing that i cannot overcome my fear of recording myself. sometimes i like to post myself on social media but knowing that the people who follow my account are respectful and appropriate.
one of my projects were to record a tik tok or a small video and sharing it to my teachers. i know that the teachers that i have are not disrespectful or any type of negativity but i have fear not knowing the reaction of them.
it also counts on speaking, i do not like engaging on conversations that i might not know how the other person will react. especially on presentations i get scared that if i say the wrong thing or if i pronounce something wrong i might get made fun of.
it absolute terrifies me.
but in the end of the day i know that i have to overcome this fear that might tomorrow, next week, or maybe when i’m at my 40’s.
i’d like to let people know that it is okay to have fears even thought that it can really scary you in many shapes or forms. in the end we are human filled with emotions.
we can overcome it. fear shouldn’t be the reason you do not try things.
that’s all. bye-bye and have a lovely day/evening/ of night. :)