Ayanokoji_Kiyotaka17

Little bit late to say this now but yesterday (at the time of writing) the 12th of January I celebrated my 17th birthday. I am finally 17 now. My driving test is a few weeks away as is the commencement of my final year in high school where I have 11 months of anything that i can describe of all school leading up to this point. All the triumphs, pain, joy, agony. Anything I can think of has lead me to this point. I have devoted a bit of time to preparing for school with it being 2 weeks away. I have made progress on my stories but I haven’t touched it a fair bit.
          	
          	I do plan on finishing them just of course managing my time is an important skill I’m yet to hold let alone do.
          	
          	As for my health? New visions have been given down to me and I have been a bit more joyful and energetic nowadays. I can still feel empty and all but it has definitely been lifted off my shoulders!
          	
          	Planning to amp it up to the max my effort and give it my all. As I’ve expressed those stories should come real soon I just don’t have a specific date as of late!
          	
          	Thank you all!

Ayanokoji_Kiyotaka17

@DrOktoberfest Thanks a lot. Particularly in recent times mental health is no joke it really is difficult to reach out sometimes. It compounded if you do have a fear of what others may think should you reach out. It takes a lot of courage that's for sure. 
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COTE16357

Happy birthday. Wish you good health 
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Ayanokoji_Kiyotaka17

Little bit late to say this now but yesterday (at the time of writing) the 12th of January I celebrated my 17th birthday. I am finally 17 now. My driving test is a few weeks away as is the commencement of my final year in high school where I have 11 months of anything that i can describe of all school leading up to this point. All the triumphs, pain, joy, agony. Anything I can think of has lead me to this point. I have devoted a bit of time to preparing for school with it being 2 weeks away. I have made progress on my stories but I haven’t touched it a fair bit.
          
          I do plan on finishing them just of course managing my time is an important skill I’m yet to hold let alone do.
          
          As for my health? New visions have been given down to me and I have been a bit more joyful and energetic nowadays. I can still feel empty and all but it has definitely been lifted off my shoulders!
          
          Planning to amp it up to the max my effort and give it my all. As I’ve expressed those stories should come real soon I just don’t have a specific date as of late!
          
          Thank you all!

Ayanokoji_Kiyotaka17

@DrOktoberfest Thanks a lot. Particularly in recent times mental health is no joke it really is difficult to reach out sometimes. It compounded if you do have a fear of what others may think should you reach out. It takes a lot of courage that's for sure. 
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COTE16357

Happy birthday. Wish you good health 
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Ayanokoji_Kiyotaka17

Little bit better now start of 2025 has been okay been on the right notes.
          
          Vol 1. Chapter 13 and 14 of Married Life: Karuizawa Kei 
          
          Chapter 13 is at least 40% complete and will likely get done today if I put my mind 100% on it. 
          
          I’ll try and Married Life: Matsushita Chiaki up and running as well immediately as soon as I complete Vol 1. of Married Life: Karuizawa Kei.
          
          
          But I have been working and getting the groundwork on a decently sized project and it’s still a work in progress I’m still finishing out the groundwork for it but it will something that’s not anime related but still focuses on romance (I have a thing or two for writing Romance fictional stories it seems haha) more info will come out very soon and chapters will be released likely maybe the end of the month will see how things go!
          
          Anyways happy reading and a bit of a late Happy New Year as well ahahaha to kickstart 2025! 

anhs7442

@Ayanokoji_Kiyotaka17 happy new year hope you get better 
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Ayanokoji_Kiyotaka17

I've been trying to manage my health, it's been nearly 4 years since I devolved into the state I currently am in. 
          
          Nothing has been driving me, not even writing, music. Nothing.
          
          It's as if... I have been consumed by fire and just living life alone, cold, heartless, empty anything I could explain my environment right now.
          
          Coupled with addictions, it's been tiring and exhausting nearly 4 years of my life potentially undiagnosed but showing clear signs I'm not okay.
          
          I haven't spoken to anyone for a large part about how I am fearing vulnerability except for a single person who comforts me.
          
          I'm still holding strong, I'm holding on still but yeah just been living my life on down and things that make me happy i sense is there for me to cope and get out of my low battery mode that is fighting off supposedly undiagnosed depression which sometimes I can show subtlety but no one will notice.
          
          I still hold my word that Volume 1 of Married Life: Karuizawa Kei will be done by the end of this year it's just about putting my mind on it.
          
          I hope I don't tear anyone up but I... Yeah, I'll end my typing here.

Ayanokoji_Kiyotaka17

@HundredBlossoms In my case it's not necessarily about being a people pleaser. It's a bit deep rooted than that. I'm not anti-social but i do have social issues. Notably within school. I don't strive for popularity but at least having a good group of friends. But certainly, in some ways I have noticed sometimes... I do get used up, but I don't always notice it. I do question myself do I find myself compatible.
            
            Also admittedly, I do value someone's company as well. I don't mind being alone don't get me wrong but it's like a drug - if i overdo it. It can be miserable and all that. So there are a lot of holes and problems in life. Ofc I'm not proud it.
            
            I am heading into my final year of high school, and part of me is already looking forward to uni and the next chapter of my life but part of me knows I still have 2025 left and strive to get myself up from my broken and shattered throne covered in blood and out of the rut i have been in for years. Even someone religious like myself have these hidden battles and if i can get through it with someone's company it'd be better than always facing things alone :)
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HundredBlossoms

@Ayanokoji_Kiyotaka17 I’ve learned over the years that I need to be less of a people pleaser and be more self-centered. It’s worked out in my favor for my own confidence. It’s not like I’m too self-absorbed that I disregard other people. I just make it my own objective to make myself happy.
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Ayanokoji_Kiyotaka17

@HundredBlossoms Thanks, it’s never easy. Granted I haven’t helped myself and sometimes neglect self care but yeah. I do have genuine fear on how people react to when you have issues regardless of who it is. Even family members. 
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CSS655

btw have you seen the breakup? if so thoughts?

CSS655

Ic Ic thats fine @Ayanokoji_Kiyotaka17 of course real life comes 1st hopefully you get it sorted out.
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Ayanokoji_Kiyotaka17

@CSS655 I'll admit I've only seen the anime, interpretations and breakdown of events in Classroom of the Elite after the Anime so there are evident and clear gaps in what I know. So stuff like this I am more likely to miss even though I am quite analytic and always having an eye for detail. I could get the light novels myself. If I didn't have a fear about finance and stuff like that in this day and age haha. But yeah that's interesting to hear.
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Ayanokoji_Kiyotaka17

Updates! 
          
          
          More Haste, Less Speed will undergo a revision. More info will come out soon.
          
          Vol 1. Chapter 13 on Married Life Karuizawa Kei is still being worked on and hoping to get it done sometimes this week as well as Chapter 14 
          
          At some point a preview of Chapter 14 will come out as the ending of Volume 1 of Married Life Karuizawa Kei etches closer and closer.
          
          No work has been done yet to the 3 Short Stories but I'll cross that bridge soon.
          
          No work has been started on Married Life Matsushita Chiaki as I'll need a bit of time on how I want to start the fanfic but again more info in the near future. 

Ayanokoji_Kiyotaka17

Hello everyone again, some changes have occurred.
          
          A new contents page has been created so you can now see what chapters are in the Volume including the unreleased ones with their title names and the 3 Short Stories.
          
          In addition, Chapter 1, 2 and 3 we're overhauled again and the main changes we're stripping a lot of the [A/N] out.
          
          Vol 1. Chapter 13 - Fight to the death is currently in the works hope to get it done soon :)
          
          Happy reading!

Ayanokoji_Kiyotaka17

Vol 1. Chapter 12 is finally out, i sincerely apolgise for the unnecessary wait. I am finally on school break but in hindsight i am preparing for my final year in high school. Additionally, my mental health and addictions we're regressing and i felt like i was spiraling out of control particularly throughout November and so far throughout December.
          
          As a Christian I have been trying to assure myself life will be alright and been praying about it. As said in Vol 1. Chapter 12 i will get all of Volume 1 of Married Life: Karuizawa Kei ready before the end of the year. I'll also be monitoring my health and ensuring everything is alright.
          
          Happy reading!

anhs7442

Keep up the great work 
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Ayanokoji_Kiyotaka17

Hello my readers,
          
          I've just not been myself recently, I can say though Vol. 1 Chapter 11 has crossed over 5k words right now.
          
          I'm hoping to get it done soon I feel like I've made you guys wait too long now.
          
          But a few things have stood in my way and that life has been difficult recently. I'm still trying to get on top of addictions which have been consuming me like a flamethrower and I don't mean that in a good way.
          
          2nd of all and the most detrimental impact, I am not going to be representing my school in the council capacity for 2025. In some ways I feel relieved, my mental aspect and social skills aren't to par but it has been difficult to come by as it has definitely left a mark.
          
          Although I feel defeated, it shouldn't define who I am but how I respond to coming back stronger will and currently at the time of writing it has been just terrible decisions after another.
          
          In some ways it is self-inflicted but I'm some cases out of my control. There just has been a lot of standing issues I've had and writing hasn't been garnering my attention in this period.
          
          But I'm looking to recompose, getting back to mitigating my addictions and issues and hopefully come back stronger.
          
          Thank you all!
          
          The Maple Leaf out! 

Ayanokoji_Kiyotaka17

An update on Vol. 1 Chapter 11 for Married Life: Karuizawa Kei, I have been able to work on it a bit more recently as school has become a little less busy. It's only at most maybe 40-55% complete. I do warn it is a long chapter as there is a lot in the chapter that I want to cover. Please have your patience I shall have it hot and ready in the future!
          
          Leafy out!