Azucena2602

          ..... My heart hurts right now.
          
          I don't know who is here willing to see this, but today, I found out something really shocking, and I'm still wrapping my head around this.  Basically today, I found out that one of the content creators that I have been supporting called Avidmc is not the person I thought he was.
          
           When I saw the first post that he made saying that he was quitting being a content creator I was shocked and confused. However, as the day progressed apparently a lot of other content creators on the Minecraft community came out, saying that Avid and his fiancé Marmalade are very toxic manipulative people. They were apparently been isolating them from other people and their loved ones. When they were confronted during twitchcon, a while ago, they both acted as if they were the victims.
          
           This is by far the most surprising thing that I have ever seen in my life and I do not know how to process the information that I have been trying to find all day.
          
           I feel confused, hurt, betrayed and just lost. It has been not only a year since I've been a part of his community. During that time, all I've seen was that he was a pretty funny guy who loves and support his community and his friends and I just never suspected that he had another side to them.  Hearing about this and seeing how there are so many people  Reacting to this information is a little overwhelming.
          
           I myself don't know what to do, especially because of how I really like listening to his music and seeing the fan fictions about his characters online and even watching his videos.  I don't even know if I want to continue doing that. I think it's going to take a few days for me to really process everything that has happened in the past 24 hours and see if I still don't want to be looking at all the things that I used to love about this person, I just wanted to say this because I have no other way of letting this out, too. So thank you for letting me rant. 

Can't believe that it's almost going to be 10 years since I started this account. !0 YEARS!!! That's so crazy. I feel so different now compared to that young freshman girl back in 2016.  How are all of you? 
          
          Better yet, how long have YOU guys been here on Wattpad? I'd really like to know.

Organizing these books are SO time consuming. Especially when you haven't really done it since High School *crying* 
          
          But in the end it's going to be so worth it. 
          
          Anyways how are you all doing? How has life been treating you all?

I just got the notification that the private message on Wattpad is being deleted. It makes me sad to see it go. It also makes me wonder why they decided to delete it. Were there some people having problems with it? Anybody getting hurt by it? I hope not. :( 
          
          Anyway, since the announcement, I decided to go look at some of my old chats, and wow. Reading through all my messages to people I've followed and who follow me felt nostalgic. Not only that but I also felt so grateful to be in contact with all these amazing people, who took the time to talk and RP to me. Their support and words have been such a big help to me in ways I can't describe. (And they don't even know it.)
          
          So much has changed for me since I first started Wattpad. I mean, I was a 14-year-old freshman in high school when I first started here. I was so insecure and unsure of myself and my abilities. But I knew I wanted to write my stories here and show everyone the worlds I had. Or at least, see the adventures I've been through since I was a kid. One of them is my Yugioh my version book. These stories are very special to me and sadly I never got to show them all, or any of them, due to my fear of others' reactions and possible negative judgment. It was just so hard to continue and when I finished high school I stopped altogether and was lost for about a year or 2. 
          
          But later on, I decided to get help, and thanks to that I'm slowly but surely getting back on my feet. Now I'm a 21-year-old, almost 22, young woman in college getting her degree in Animation and just living life as best as possible. I've learned so much, not just in life but in here as well.  My creativity may have been lost for some time but I'm finding it again and slowly getting back into the writing game. I still have a lot to learn but I know with time and effort I'll get there.  I know all of this is cringy but please believe me when I say I'm forever grateful to all of you and Wattpad for being there for me like you have no idea.

Happy new years everyone! 2023 is over and we are now officially in 2024! It's so crazy rn to me. I feel so happy not only for the year I had in 2023 but for the unknow of 2024. Idk why but I feel like something really special is going to happen this year for me.....or that might be the happy adrenaline hehe. Still I hope you all are having a happy new year and all I can say is..... let's do our best in 2024!

I just went through my first day back at college today! It was certainly something, and I only had one class today! My professor is really- expressive in how he acts. He does seem pretty okay, a little strict with tests but okay. I'm unsure if this will be the right fit but at the same time, he's also the only teacher that teaches at the campus close to home.  Maybe I should give it a chance?  I do see him again on Thursday anyway. It could help give me a bit deeper view of him.
          
          Thoughts? *sighs sadly* I don't know. I only have a few more classes that I could take here on this campus before finding a way to get to the one that is a bit far to take the classes I need for my major.  Maybe it's just pre-back-to-school jitters. It's been a while since being in the school flow since dealing with the summer off. 
          
          Anyone got any advice for a nervous back-to-school soon-to-be 21-year-old?

Hello everyone! 
          
          Because I've been hearing some rumors about Wattpad banning those who don't have completed stories I've decided to put all my published stories on complete. 
          
          Is it all stories have to be complete or just the public ones? Please help me if you can!
          
          Anyways that is all, thank you!

So.....I got sick a few days ago. The one thing thing I've been dreading since having Covid last year and here I am . Ironically the time frame between the 2 times are closed to each other. 
          
          I'm not suffering alone- my dad and older siblings are also sick. Thank God my mom's still ok but I still pray that she won't catch anything of any of us. 
          
          I am currently binge reading different fanfiction I haven't read in a while and new updated ones, while I recover. It's still boring because I want to do my activities, like writing and drawing, so bad but I can't! All because I don't want to contaminate my stuff. 
          
          Hopefully, me and my family (minus my mom) will recover soon and things will get back to normal. Especially because the fall semester is starting soon in August. So wish me luck everyone!  

It's been a long time since I've been on this conversations tab. I've missed being here.  
          
          It's been pretty hectic for me for the past few months. I've JUST turned in my last big assignment for my history class in college and I am officially done with my spring semester classes. Plus, I'm going to be taking a break this summer, but I'm going to be spending that time working. But I'm also planning to have some time for myself too. I've been working on some writing projects while dealing with my classes. Hopefully, during this break, I'll have more time to work on them before I get back into it in the Fall.  
          
          Anyways, how are all of you? Has everything been ok on your side?

It's amazing how even if I haven't updated on anything people still vote for Yugioh my version. I'm honestly speechless right now.