Isn't it frustrating and draining if someone talks over you? Yung parang wala man lang nakakapansin na nandiyan ka, nag-e-exist, pero para ka lang wala sa iba? Na parang invisible ka lang?
Even if you're trying to joke your way into the group, trying to come out of your own bubble, trying to be a little new instead of keeping yourself in your shell—no one noticed your efforts, nor your presence at all. It's like you're programmed to just stay as a spectator. Walang papansin sayo, kaya pinapanood mo na lang na umikot yung mundo hanggang sa bumalik ka uli sa sariling space mo. Now more afraid of coming out of your shell than ever.
It's depressing to handle that every single day and act like you're composed. What if you break? What if you can no longer pretend that you're fine about that happening for days, weeks, months, even years?
If you do break... who will you run to? Who will be your safe space, when you don’t even feel safe on your own?
Will you just end your chapter? Just like that?
