One thing I've learned was that, while cutting may seem like a solution, it's like drugs. It starts out innocently, then you get addicted. Sucked into it, if I may. It's hard to stop. Almost harder than dragging the blade across your skin. But stopping helps. Even if it's only for short periods of time. I tried to get as enveloped into something as I could. Sports, schoolwork, anything. Focusing on something other than harm is the best way to escape it. It'll get better, because God would never give you something you can't handle. I believe in you. If it helps, go out and buy a dammit doll. I think they're fun. :)