Castor/Cosmos

My brother just contacted me after a few months of no contact. For those who don't know, my brother moved out with his girlfriend a while ago. He had also tried getting my mom fired by posting their texts online which thankfully didn't work. He was asking for my mom's number which I didn't give because I don't have permissions from her and I won't give him her number unless she gives me permission to. He even apologized for what he did. I am not forgiving him though. Apparently he also said he'll try getting help which I hope is true. I want him to get better. I don't want him to keep making people suffer. I just hope he gets better. I doubt I'll ever forgive him though. I dealt with years of depression because of him (still am currently fighting depression). I have trauma because of him. I'm just still processing that he actually apologized and is considering getting help. I'm just surprised. He has always refused help. He would yell at anyone even trying to say he needed help and now he's willingly going to get help. I'm just in shock. I just hope he's being honest about getting help. I want him to get better. But I won't ever forgive him even so.

Hey so I decided I'm gonna start updating my SAMS incorrect quotes book again. I won't be roleplaying yet though (for those who donot know, I used to roleplay in the comment area with some people but I don't know when I'll go back to it or if I will due to mental health). I have really missed updating my SAMS incorrect quotes book and thought I'd return to it

Letting ya'll know I'm alive. School got canceled for tomorrow because of the snow storm- I would usually be happy about no school but I got a flower show in two weeks....and I'm hoping school won't be canceled for more than one or two days because bro I got to work on my flower arrangement for the flower show for my floral class and I can only work on it in school 

So uh- I been coughing for an entire week... it's been non-stop. I may be going to the doctors soon if it keeps up and hopefully it isn't anything bad. On a side note, there's gonna be a bad snow storm soon here in the US (I live in the US for those who don't know. You ain't getting where cause privacy). I also got to go with my dad and grandma out today before the storm to run errands. So let's hope we don't get caught in the storm and we can get it done before it actually starts. That's all, I'll update ya'll when I get back. Castor out!

So uh- today's laes reboot episode. Here's my opinion on it. I can kinda see why Earth snapped abit but she is also just expecting people to read her mind. Mars had a point when he said she could have just told them she was feeling that way instead of expecting everyone to know something was wrong. He literally apologized even though he didn't know what was wrong, he thought he did something wrong and still apologized. I feel like Earth is just expecting people to immediately know how she feels. This is basically what President Earth wants. I think we all know this at this point. President Earth wants Earth to snap and eventually lose it. Also did anyone else notice Dazzle sneaking around in today's video too? I didn't notice until I saw someone point it out in the comments. Now I wonder how many other videos she's been in that we haven't noticed. Yeah absolutely noone is surprised Dazzle is seen sneaking around again. We all know she's a spy for President Earth. Well thats for coming to another one of my Tedtalks. Castor out.

I'm tweaking over KS right now- I need tsams to make a video with him soon. Please! I need to see my favorite Sun! Agshidurhjtoriwjuwjeiiew I fucking love him sm- also uh- I'm kinda questioning if I have a KS fictionkin.... I'm scared if I do- I love KS but I dont want him in my head like that... I started noticing my Moon fictionkin being more protective lately. Cosmos has been more active. Jack is just here (Jack is rarely out. I rarely shift as him. Sometimes he does talk but rarely.) Also I recently told one of my friends about this. Finally someone doesn't find me crazy and he actually listens when I talk about it. Apparently he has noticed when my Cosmos fictionkin first appeared which was basically a few months after I first got into the sams fandom back when Cosmos first appeared and was Lunar. Anyways, that's the end of my TedTalk/j. See ya'll next time I decide I wanna rant. Castor out! 

I love Titan already- he kinda reminds me abit of KS in a way (please tell me someone else sees it too-). I just love him- he's a silly little guy (I say as he literally just put his hand through Gemini and killed them). On that note, I think I got my irl friend back into sams. I keep talking about it to him and I swear while we were on call I heard him watching the Titan video. Wether he actually got back into it or not, that means I finally got someone irl to rant to sams about (I am also introduced him to a bunch of the sams jokes like the Monty please and other ones. Also I don't care that the Monty please joke is over and mostlikely a dead meme at this point. It's become one of my vocal stims and I can't stop saying it- help/j-)

"Pennywise shoots Cosmos in vrchat" - my irl friend 

Welcome back to another episode of what weird thing did Castor say today! This was from yesterday when I was playing Bloxburg with one of my irl friends-
          
          "Mmmm I love Nut Master!" - me roleplaying as Cosmos (for context, I was trying to find a Nutella picture to put in his room in Bloxburg and the first thing that came up was a Nutella bottle that said Nut Master and I just found it funny so I kept it- I was also very tired and when I am tired, I say weird shit.)
          
          "I'm gonna steal your skin" - me again (I don't have context for this. I don't know)
          
          That's all I can remember from last night. So note to self, if you don't wanna hear me saying weird or out of context shit don't play roblox with me when I'm half asleep (yes at my grown ass age of 18 I still play roblox. Sue me/j.)

Female Eclipse from the new laes is hot