B1ackDiA
Hello...
Don't worry, I am still alive. Although some frictions and many problems remain unresolved, the war has cooled down to a certain degree.
At least, no one talked about fleeing anymore.
To be honest, I kind of regret making my previous post. It felt like I was tossing out an excuse to be pardoned. Not to mention, everyone is dealing with their own worries; I don’t have to add another on their plate.
I am used to having no one ask me, ‘Why did you cry?’
You see, I am a people pleaser.
I am both looking forward to and dreading reading comments.
There was a time when someone asked ‘When will you update?’ I replied, saying something along the lines that I am mentally unwell, so I don’t know. They replied, ‘I understand those feelings.’ A few days later, the same person commented, ‘Update?’
I realized ‘Ah. No one really gives a damn about me.’
Both online and offline.
To be honest, I’ve already decided on a date.
My birthday.
Don’t be alarmed, for now it is on hold.
After all Death has always lived in the present, not the future.
Today, my mood is rather okay, so I finally mustered the courage to read comments on Wattpad. To be honest, I didn’t expect to receive any replies, at least not good ones anyway.
I didn’t really think my childish writings would make even a ripple in someone’s life; the weight should be less than a particle. To think that over 30 people would take their time to write and pray for my safety… it is unimaginable.
This reminds me once more why I kept coming back despite already giving up on living.
Thank you for your well wishes. I, too, pray that everyone is moving forward like a true warrior.
Have a nice weekend.
As always, updates are irregular.
_cloudead_mind
Hello Scummy Author :>
I hope that things are doing better for you now, and if not, then i pray that it will be soon. I dont know how you are doing right now, i dont know how you are feeling, i dont even know who you are. But I truly hope that you dont give up and keep fighting for yourself.
I cannot fanthom getting involved in a war, and experiencing it firsthand must be traumatizing. We might not be of help but please have some hope and keep going. And i dont mean keep going in writing, but in life. You may be a people pleaser but this is not your job, it is not your obligation to provide us an update when you are clearly fighting for your life. I meant to say keep fighting for yourself, so that you can see the next day and build a successful or stable future.
Dont get discouraged, dont lose hope, dont give up. We support you in your decisions, whatever it may be. Dont even update if you dont want to, we arent feeding you that we are supposed to be able to demand an update. Because after everything is said and done, we are just strangers to you and we aren't of much help. You can just ghost us and focus on yourself until you are okay, so please be safe and dont give up.
And after everything, i still hope that you update us of your condition. I hope to see the day you say that you're truly well and that you're not crying anymore :>
Until we meet again, please survive and live life.
BlueSummer99
@B1ackDiA Honey, take your time. Really. I am really glad that you are ok, right now. Keep making yourself happy please. And, what childish? Your stories are anything but childish, ok. Don't forget to take care of yourself first. We still want the best for you