B1ackDiA

Hello... 
          	
          	Don't worry, I am still alive. Although some frictions and many problems remain unresolved, the war has cooled down to a certain degree.
          	
          	At least, no one talked about fleeing anymore.
          	
          	To be honest, I kind of regret making my previous post. It felt like I was tossing out an excuse to be pardoned. Not to mention, everyone is dealing with their own worries; I don’t have to add another on their plate.
          	
          	I am used to having no one ask me, ‘Why did you cry?’
          	
          	You see, I am a people pleaser.
          	
          	I am both looking forward to and dreading reading comments.
          	
          	There was a time when someone asked ‘When will you update?’ I replied, saying something along the lines that I am mentally unwell, so I don’t know. They replied, ‘I understand those feelings.’ A few days later, the same person commented, ‘Update?’
          	
          	I realized ‘Ah. No one really gives a damn about me.’
          	
          	Both online and offline.
          	
          	To be honest, I’ve already decided on a date.
          	
          	My birthday.
          	
          	Don’t be alarmed, for now it is on hold.
          	
          	After all Death has always lived in the present, not the future.
          	
          	Today, my mood is rather okay, so I finally mustered the courage to read comments on Wattpad. To be honest, I didn’t expect to receive any replies, at least not good ones anyway.
          	
          	I didn’t really think my childish writings would make even a ripple in someone’s life; the weight should be less than a particle. To think that over 30 people would take their time to write and pray for my safety… it is unimaginable.
          	
          	This reminds me once more why I kept coming back despite already giving up on living.
          	
          	Thank you for your well wishes. I, too, pray that everyone is moving forward like a true warrior.
          	
          	Have a nice weekend.
          	
          	As always, updates are irregular.

TigreJiminsSideKick

@B1ackDiA  never give up author-sama! Some get the best and worst of both worlds while some don't realize they are lucky. Just keep it in mind that there are good people, even strangers, just there for you—waiting for your greeting, your smiles, your hugs, your ups snd downs, and when you're hungry you just haven't found ur community yet don't make them wait author-sama. You can do it!
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Taenaaa143

You want to hear my yesterday, author? Please don't laugh with my grammar ah, I'm still learning. So ayun, our mid-term week is over and finals na! Omg talaga like lapit na demo namin author huhu what to do I'm actually anxious since I really hate teaching but wala na akong choice since 2 years na lang eh so ayun nga author if you want to know my exams well, pasado sila! Hihi congrats me po author if nabasa mo ah ito kiss oh . So yun super duper init here buti na lang may mini-fan ako, wanna know what brand? Reply ka muna hahaha so ayun author, hindi ako nakapasok sa 2 sub's ko kasi tinamad and na-late ng gising, my fault, our fault, charrr. So yun nga author, alam mo ba? Syempre hindi pa, yung 2 prof ko is hindi pumasok sa klase? Dahil? Kasi absent yung isa then yung isa naman is sinabi sa gc namin na ibibigay niya sa'min yung araw na yun to enjoy our holly week with our family and sweet just like u author! So ayun natuwa kami tapos grade reveal . Author pasado ako! Nakakatuwa huhu hindi ako bagsak. Congratulations me po author huhu. Super-duper matutuwa em if nangyari yun feeling ko mahaba na ang mga nasabi ko my goodness. Bali chaka ko na la g ichichika yung iba if online ka po! Char lang. Update po kita hehehe. Bali tomorrow po. Bye, miss u like crazy ~
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Taenaaa143

Hi, author. Now ko lang nakita and nabasa ang story mo and ang ganda super ☺️ ngl pwede na siyang pang- international, pasok na pasok eh, like step-by-step kung baga. I hope you're feeling better and well, do not worry, and pressure about the comments, your health matters. If you want to have a chat or rant, anything, you may chat with me or yung mga tao here in the comment section. Dgaf about those negative comments, author. See you soon.,
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killerblood14

Hey author! When are you going to update the gangster wife?

killerblood14

Always be well and be thankful that you're alive and well because some people wished that they wanted to live rather than dying. Moreover, it's better to live and enjoy life, ignore the people that have been causing pain to you, they don't care about your life, your mentality. Always move forward not backwards, don't look back , leave them all behind ( the pain, worries, people) cause you gotta admit, who will help you when you're down? Yourself, Who will keep you alive? Yourself, Who cares when you're dying or being depressed? Yourself 
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killerblood14

Aye, take your time updating but don't take too long(⁠人⁠ ⁠•͈⁠ᴗ⁠•͈⁠)
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B1ackDiA

Hello... 
          
          Don't worry, I am still alive. Although some frictions and many problems remain unresolved, the war has cooled down to a certain degree.
          
          At least, no one talked about fleeing anymore.
          
          To be honest, I kind of regret making my previous post. It felt like I was tossing out an excuse to be pardoned. Not to mention, everyone is dealing with their own worries; I don’t have to add another on their plate.
          
          I am used to having no one ask me, ‘Why did you cry?’
          
          You see, I am a people pleaser.
          
          I am both looking forward to and dreading reading comments.
          
          There was a time when someone asked ‘When will you update?’ I replied, saying something along the lines that I am mentally unwell, so I don’t know. They replied, ‘I understand those feelings.’ A few days later, the same person commented, ‘Update?’
          
          I realized ‘Ah. No one really gives a damn about me.’
          
          Both online and offline.
          
          To be honest, I’ve already decided on a date.
          
          My birthday.
          
          Don’t be alarmed, for now it is on hold.
          
          After all Death has always lived in the present, not the future.
          
          Today, my mood is rather okay, so I finally mustered the courage to read comments on Wattpad. To be honest, I didn’t expect to receive any replies, at least not good ones anyway.
          
          I didn’t really think my childish writings would make even a ripple in someone’s life; the weight should be less than a particle. To think that over 30 people would take their time to write and pray for my safety… it is unimaginable.
          
          This reminds me once more why I kept coming back despite already giving up on living.
          
          Thank you for your well wishes. I, too, pray that everyone is moving forward like a true warrior.
          
          Have a nice weekend.
          
          As always, updates are irregular.

TigreJiminsSideKick

@B1ackDiA  never give up author-sama! Some get the best and worst of both worlds while some don't realize they are lucky. Just keep it in mind that there are good people, even strangers, just there for you—waiting for your greeting, your smiles, your hugs, your ups snd downs, and when you're hungry you just haven't found ur community yet don't make them wait author-sama. You can do it!
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Taenaaa143

You want to hear my yesterday, author? Please don't laugh with my grammar ah, I'm still learning. So ayun, our mid-term week is over and finals na! Omg talaga like lapit na demo namin author huhu what to do I'm actually anxious since I really hate teaching but wala na akong choice since 2 years na lang eh so ayun nga author if you want to know my exams well, pasado sila! Hihi congrats me po author if nabasa mo ah ito kiss oh . So yun super duper init here buti na lang may mini-fan ako, wanna know what brand? Reply ka muna hahaha so ayun author, hindi ako nakapasok sa 2 sub's ko kasi tinamad and na-late ng gising, my fault, our fault, charrr. So yun nga author, alam mo ba? Syempre hindi pa, yung 2 prof ko is hindi pumasok sa klase? Dahil? Kasi absent yung isa then yung isa naman is sinabi sa gc namin na ibibigay niya sa'min yung araw na yun to enjoy our holly week with our family and sweet just like u author! So ayun natuwa kami tapos grade reveal . Author pasado ako! Nakakatuwa huhu hindi ako bagsak. Congratulations me po author huhu. Super-duper matutuwa em if nangyari yun feeling ko mahaba na ang mga nasabi ko my goodness. Bali chaka ko na la g ichichika yung iba if online ka po! Char lang. Update po kita hehehe. Bali tomorrow po. Bye, miss u like crazy ~
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Taenaaa143

Hi, author. Now ko lang nakita and nabasa ang story mo and ang ganda super ☺️ ngl pwede na siyang pang- international, pasok na pasok eh, like step-by-step kung baga. I hope you're feeling better and well, do not worry, and pressure about the comments, your health matters. If you want to have a chat or rant, anything, you may chat with me or yung mga tao here in the comment section. Dgaf about those negative comments, author. See you soon.,
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BlueSummer99

Hello author.
          I love all your stories. And you did give me something in my time of darkness. Although maybe not the same darkness you felt right now.
          
          So I hope you don't think of yourself as a good for nothing.
          
          I'll pray for your safety.
          In the meantime, I hope you could keep yourself healthy. In mind and body.
          
          
          Really hope everything goes well for you.
          
          We never meet each other, but your story make me cry sometimes.
          
          So, let's be healthy together Author.
          
          And maybe meet again here

B1ackDiA

There is a war raging in my country.
          
          Just the other day, a bomb dropped not far away from where I'm living. Many more will likely follow soon...
          
          Everyone is fleeing in all directions, trying to get away from the flame. Both young and old are mourning for their lost homes and lost ones.
          
          Soon, it might be my turn to be in a refugee camp or even worse gone for good.
          
          I want to disappear quietly, since after all, it is what I do all the time anyway. Going MIA for months or even years. This way, you guys can assume that I am just living my life somewhere, happily.
          
          However, since the future looks grim for poor ordinary folks like us, I have decided to do a proper farewell just in case.
          
          At least in this way, I get closure.
          
          For a good-for-nothing like me to be able to live to this day is already a miracle. With how everyone looks at me as if they are reading the word failure, it is suffocating. My feet definitely touch the ground, but I feel as if I am hovering mid-air with a rope around my neck.
          
          When I was ready to go, however, a door that I didn’t even know existed suddenly opened from the other side.
          
          I started looking forward to living.
          
          I was happy at the thought that I might become a functional person again.
          
          And yet. The path crumbled.
          
          And I stood still, helpless.
          
          The memories I made here with you guys over all these years, I will continue to look at them fondly.
          
          If fate still has some warmth left, I hope to see you guys again.
          
          Farewell.

nifugime

@B1ackDiA I don't use Wattpad as much as before, for various reasons so I didn't see your messages, I also didn't read your stories from the beginning but it's good and I enjoyed them, stay safe and take care of yourself, 
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210_Simp_012

Please be safe, I may be late in reply but I pray that you will be safe and sound, it's fine if you want to MIA the situation is understandable but just know that I will never stop rereading your stories, You are one of my favorites authors, I found you by accident, by accidentally clicking a random people's BL section and I found your story, I thought to give it a try, I was still young and dumb and until now I really really love your books, I hope and pray that you will remain safe and happy, if ever you come back just know that we are always waiting for you. Thank you for everything!
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PrincessAnnGutierr02

Kakayanin mo yan. Ikaw pa! Fighting lang po!! Ampoan po tika.
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Jonginah_88

if you dont want to update just delete your acc here you are making your reader wait for your update but you dont even update it if you dropped it or what just go on your life and delete your acc so reader wont check if you upd or not.

anime185207

@Jonginah_88 ?? The audacity?! It's your choice to read and it's the author's choice to write. We are all willing to wait,   and if you're not, then just act like you've never seen this account nor the stories. We are not forcing you to anyway. And don't yap on the author, you did not even know her/him personally, thus, you don't have the rights. It just shows how a person can be narrow minded— like you  
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eggwish

@Jonginah_88 u could also, unfollow the author rather than telling them to delete thr account, that's just disrespectful to highest level. .   It's not like your paying them to write. A lot of readers have been following and will cont. to do so even if it takes years.  They can write at thr own pace and all ww can do is be thankful. Ur energy is not needed on hr.  Bless ur life. 
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karma1kitty

@Jonginah_88 
            Lol. You can choose to not come back. Why should they delete their account? You don't even know what's going on in their life. Unless you did pay money to have them  write for you, then please be respectful to them. Peace out.
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