B1ackDiA

Hello... 
          	
          	Don't worry, I am still alive. Although some frictions and many problems remain unresolved, the war has cooled down to a certain degree.
          	
          	At least, no one talked about fleeing anymore.
          	
          	To be honest, I kind of regret making my previous post. It felt like I was tossing out an excuse to be pardoned. Not to mention, everyone is dealing with their own worries; I don’t have to add another on their plate.
          	
          	I am used to having no one ask me, ‘Why did you cry?’
          	
          	You see, I am a people pleaser.
          	
          	I am both looking forward to and dreading reading comments.
          	
          	There was a time when someone asked ‘When will you update?’ I replied, saying something along the lines that I am mentally unwell, so I don’t know. They replied, ‘I understand those feelings.’ A few days later, the same person commented, ‘Update?’
          	
          	I realized ‘Ah. No one really gives a damn about me.’
          	
          	Both online and offline.
          	
          	To be honest, I’ve already decided on a date.
          	
          	My birthday.
          	
          	Don’t be alarmed, for now it is on hold.
          	
          	After all Death has always lived in the present, not the future.
          	
          	Today, my mood is rather okay, so I finally mustered the courage to read comments on Wattpad. To be honest, I didn’t expect to receive any replies, at least not good ones anyway.
          	
          	I didn’t really think my childish writings would make even a ripple in someone’s life; the weight should be less than a particle. To think that over 30 people would take their time to write and pray for my safety… it is unimaginable.
          	
          	This reminds me once more why I kept coming back despite already giving up on living.
          	
          	Thank you for your well wishes. I, too, pray that everyone is moving forward like a true warrior.
          	
          	Have a nice weekend.
          	
          	As always, updates are irregular.

_cloudead_mind

Hello Scummy Author :> 
          	  I hope that things are doing better for you now, and if not, then i pray that it will be soon. I dont know how you are doing right now, i dont know how you are feeling, i dont even know who you are. But I truly hope that you dont give up and keep fighting for yourself. 
          	  
          	  I cannot fanthom getting involved in a war, and experiencing it firsthand must be traumatizing. We might not be of help but please have some hope and keep going. And i dont mean keep going in writing, but in life. You may be a people pleaser but this is not your job, it is not your obligation to provide us an update when you are clearly fighting for your life. I meant to say keep fighting for yourself, so that you can see the next day and build a successful or stable future. 
          	  
          	  Dont get discouraged, dont lose hope, dont give up. We support you in your decisions, whatever it may be. Dont even update if you dont want to, we arent feeding you that we are supposed to be able to demand an update. Because after everything is said and done, we are just strangers to you and we aren't of much help. You can just ghost us and focus on yourself until you are okay, so please be safe and dont give up.
          	  
          	  And after everything, i still hope that you update us of your condition. I hope to see the day you say that you're truly well and that you're not crying anymore :> 
          	  Until we meet again, please survive and live life.
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BlueSummer99

@B1ackDiA Honey, take your time. Really. I am really glad that you are ok, right now.
          	  Keep making yourself happy please.
          	  And, what childish? Your stories are anything but childish, ok.
          	  
          	  Don't forget to take care of yourself first. We still want the best for you
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nifugime

@B1ackDiA I don't think your writing childish, take care and don't force yourself 
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B1ackDiA

Hello... 
          
          Don't worry, I am still alive. Although some frictions and many problems remain unresolved, the war has cooled down to a certain degree.
          
          At least, no one talked about fleeing anymore.
          
          To be honest, I kind of regret making my previous post. It felt like I was tossing out an excuse to be pardoned. Not to mention, everyone is dealing with their own worries; I don’t have to add another on their plate.
          
          I am used to having no one ask me, ‘Why did you cry?’
          
          You see, I am a people pleaser.
          
          I am both looking forward to and dreading reading comments.
          
          There was a time when someone asked ‘When will you update?’ I replied, saying something along the lines that I am mentally unwell, so I don’t know. They replied, ‘I understand those feelings.’ A few days later, the same person commented, ‘Update?’
          
          I realized ‘Ah. No one really gives a damn about me.’
          
          Both online and offline.
          
          To be honest, I’ve already decided on a date.
          
          My birthday.
          
          Don’t be alarmed, for now it is on hold.
          
          After all Death has always lived in the present, not the future.
          
          Today, my mood is rather okay, so I finally mustered the courage to read comments on Wattpad. To be honest, I didn’t expect to receive any replies, at least not good ones anyway.
          
          I didn’t really think my childish writings would make even a ripple in someone’s life; the weight should be less than a particle. To think that over 30 people would take their time to write and pray for my safety… it is unimaginable.
          
          This reminds me once more why I kept coming back despite already giving up on living.
          
          Thank you for your well wishes. I, too, pray that everyone is moving forward like a true warrior.
          
          Have a nice weekend.
          
          As always, updates are irregular.

_cloudead_mind

Hello Scummy Author :> 
            I hope that things are doing better for you now, and if not, then i pray that it will be soon. I dont know how you are doing right now, i dont know how you are feeling, i dont even know who you are. But I truly hope that you dont give up and keep fighting for yourself. 
            
            I cannot fanthom getting involved in a war, and experiencing it firsthand must be traumatizing. We might not be of help but please have some hope and keep going. And i dont mean keep going in writing, but in life. You may be a people pleaser but this is not your job, it is not your obligation to provide us an update when you are clearly fighting for your life. I meant to say keep fighting for yourself, so that you can see the next day and build a successful or stable future. 
            
            Dont get discouraged, dont lose hope, dont give up. We support you in your decisions, whatever it may be. Dont even update if you dont want to, we arent feeding you that we are supposed to be able to demand an update. Because after everything is said and done, we are just strangers to you and we aren't of much help. You can just ghost us and focus on yourself until you are okay, so please be safe and dont give up.
            
            And after everything, i still hope that you update us of your condition. I hope to see the day you say that you're truly well and that you're not crying anymore :> 
            Until we meet again, please survive and live life.
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BlueSummer99

@B1ackDiA Honey, take your time. Really. I am really glad that you are ok, right now.
            Keep making yourself happy please.
            And, what childish? Your stories are anything but childish, ok.
            
            Don't forget to take care of yourself first. We still want the best for you
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nifugime

@B1ackDiA I don't think your writing childish, take care and don't force yourself 
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BlueSummer99

Hello author.
          I love all your stories. And you did give me something in my time of darkness. Although maybe not the same darkness you felt right now.
          
          So I hope you don't think of yourself as a good for nothing.
          
          I'll pray for your safety.
          In the meantime, I hope you could keep yourself healthy. In mind and body.
          
          
          Really hope everything goes well for you.
          
          We never meet each other, but your story make me cry sometimes.
          
          So, let's be healthy together Author.
          
          And maybe meet again here

B1ackDiA

There is a war raging in my country.
          
          Just the other day, a bomb dropped not far away from where I'm living. Many more will likely follow soon...
          
          Everyone is fleeing in all directions, trying to get away from the flame. Both young and old are mourning for their lost homes and lost ones.
          
          Soon, it might be my turn to be in a refugee camp or even worse gone for good.
          
          I want to disappear quietly, since after all, it is what I do all the time anyway. Going MIA for months or even years. This way, you guys can assume that I am just living my life somewhere, happily.
          
          However, since the future looks grim for poor ordinary folks like us, I have decided to do a proper farewell just in case.
          
          At least in this way, I get closure.
          
          For a good-for-nothing like me to be able to live to this day is already a miracle. With how everyone looks at me as if they are reading the word failure, it is suffocating. My feet definitely touch the ground, but I feel as if I am hovering mid-air with a rope around my neck.
          
          When I was ready to go, however, a door that I didn’t even know existed suddenly opened from the other side.
          
          I started looking forward to living.
          
          I was happy at the thought that I might become a functional person again.
          
          And yet. The path crumbled.
          
          And I stood still, helpless.
          
          The memories I made here with you guys over all these years, I will continue to look at them fondly.
          
          If fate still has some warmth left, I hope to see you guys again.
          
          Farewell.

nifugime

@B1ackDiA I don't use Wattpad as much as before, for various reasons so I didn't see your messages, I also didn't read your stories from the beginning but it's good and I enjoyed them, stay safe and take care of yourself, 
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210_Simp_012

Please be safe, I may be late in reply but I pray that you will be safe and sound, it's fine if you want to MIA the situation is understandable but just know that I will never stop rereading your stories, You are one of my favorites authors, I found you by accident, by accidentally clicking a random people's BL section and I found your story, I thought to give it a try, I was still young and dumb and until now I really really love your books, I hope and pray that you will remain safe and happy, if ever you come back just know that we are always waiting for you. Thank you for everything!
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PrincessAnnGutierr02

Kakayanin mo yan. Ikaw pa! Fighting lang po!! Ampoan po tika.
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Jonginah_88

if you dont want to update just delete your acc here you are making your reader wait for your update but you dont even update it if you dropped it or what just go on your life and delete your acc so reader wont check if you upd or not.

anime185207

@Jonginah_88 ?? The audacity?! It's your choice to read and it's the author's choice to write. We are all willing to wait,   and if you're not, then just act like you've never seen this account nor the stories. We are not forcing you to anyway. And don't yap on the author, you did not even know her/him personally, thus, you don't have the rights. It just shows how a person can be narrow minded— like you  
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eggwish

@Jonginah_88 u could also, unfollow the author rather than telling them to delete thr account, that's just disrespectful to highest level. .   It's not like your paying them to write. A lot of readers have been following and will cont. to do so even if it takes years.  They can write at thr own pace and all ww can do is be thankful. Ur energy is not needed on hr.  Bless ur life. 
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karma1kitty

@Jonginah_88 
            Lol. You can choose to not come back. Why should they delete their account? You don't even know what's going on in their life. Unless you did pay money to have them  write for you, then please be respectful to them. Peace out.
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