BENJIELLIOT

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when your caregiver forgets about you after you've been little for 2 days and now you feel disoriented and confused because what the fuck is going on?

BENJIELLIOT

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my mom making me feel like shit and calling me disgusting and a pig claiming I haven't showered in months when I've showered nearly 7 times since Thursday because of how self-conscious she makes me and because I know that I'll never be truly clean because there are millions of particles in the air so I scrub as hard as possible in near-boiling water just to be told that i am disgusting... haha love my fucking family that i don't even feel safe in because they constantly talk shit about how weird lgbt people are knowing that I'm listening and that I've come out so i feel obligated to count the days to my 16th birthday where I can move in with my best friend that lives a little over 1,000 miles away and they can't bother me anymore. sorry for the long rant

thrillingworld

@BENJIELLIOT at the end of the day, they will get used to you and everything will become history. So dont worry too much. 
            You can always reach out to me. Anytime anyday and i will reply. 
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BENJIELLIOT

@-ANIMEWHORE haha thanks, I have constant up and down mood swings that can change my mood for days but start in as little as an hour. In the last week, I've had a series of negative triggers that resulted in that post and a panic attack. Some of my triggers can be as little as the first verse of a song and as big as having r*pe mentioned. (I had watched American Horror Story for the first time and in S3E1 one of the main characters had been...well you know...) I have some coping methods such as age regression (I mostly use this) but I haven't been able to regress. My mother took away what usually makes me regress and my current kinda CG/crush hasn't spoken to me in a week. I feel a lot better now because I was able to play dolls with my little sister and regress for a few hours. I'm sorry for any worry I might have given you or if I made you feel the need to try and help.
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-ANIMEWHORE

ik you don’t know me but- I don’t really know what to say about your family, but you’re valid n loved and if you ever wanna talk/rant you can pm me anytime ! <33
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BENJIELLIOT

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i came out to my dad and he said he doesn't accept me so as soon as things calm down I'm rebelling and cutting my hair :> gonna post it on here or on the classroom idk. might fuck around and dye my own hair

BENJIELLIOT

@thrillingworld lol nah he hates 'girls' with short hair and I've asked for about 3-4 years :>
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thrillingworld

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@BENJIELLIOT fucking around is fun but can be tiresome sometimes, talk to your dad again, nag him over and over. He might give in one day
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BENJIELLIOT

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EEEE SO COLIN IS POLY AND I'M OKAY TO TRYING IF IT MAKES THEM HAPPY AND HOLY FUCKING SHIT THERE WAS THIS CUTE BEAN AND COLIN WAS LIKE"CAN I" AND I WAS LIKE "HELL YA" AND NOW I HAVE TWO BOYFRIENDS-

R1OT_B0Y

@AustinRoseCloud javshsuecsic- you have multiple lovers, i cant even get one (;´༎ຶٹ༎ຶ`)
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BENJIELLIOT

I started a cool new story named Sleepyhead! It's a fluffy/angst story about Shinsou Hitoshi and Kaminari Denki!!!! I'm wondering if I should write all chapters and then publish or if I should do one at a time? please help

YassYams_09

but if you prefer to write all the chapters and then publish it, it's better for the readers like me who read all the story in one day :')
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YassYams_09

@ AustinRoseCloud  I think it's best for you to do one at a time
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