Kira J.

I'm back, again. Sorry it's been so long (3 years almost to the day?? wow.) I'd be surprised if anyone was still active enough here to see this message, I know Wattpad really isn't what it used to be in terms of active users. 
          
          If you're still around and even if you aren't, thank you. So much. Writing really was my escape for many years and I'm glad it touched so many people, even briefly.
          
          I know my disappearances have been concerning, especially this one for the length. I'm OK. At least I think I am. Things got a bit better after my last update, then sh*t hit the fan once again (as it does). Periods of recovering and relapsing, back and forth, you know the drill. After I dropped out of college I lost all my friends and I was homeless for a little while and my drug addictions got worse. It was especially hard with the pandemic, but I'm back on my feet now, living with my girlfriend, got a stable job. I'm still in and out of therapy and managing everything with a delicate cocktail of meds and drugs, so I still have a ways to go, but I've been through hell already and by God if I don't make it all the way through.
          
          I haven't been writing much. Or at all, really. Not more than reciting stuff in my head and typing out a few jumbled sentences into my Notes app. I'm getting back into it now that my life is less of a mess. Thought I'd come back to this account and publish some of the things I've been working on.
          
          So, yeah. I hope everyone is doing okay. Sorry about this long-winded update, I have a lot to talk about and a lot to work through. See you soon.
          
          Kira x

Hi! My name is jaylin but I go by Jay I think I could relate to pepper airplanes so much even though I don't have it bad but I know somewhere in my stone heart that life could fit in a paper airplane sooo if you ever need someone to talk to hit me up love  

Just read paper airplane,  very good and i hope everything worked out for you in the end, looking forward to the sequel. Keep it up if it helps.

uhm, this is gonna be so so random but... I wanted to say that I hope you're fine :)) i really really liked all of ur stories... hope to see u make more amazing stories soon!
          
          p.s i rlly miss zen and jonah hihi ✨

I’m back. 
          
          The past year or so has been incredibly hard, but so far I’m still here. I left school temporarily to go to a residential treatment center. There were so many times where I felt like a huge burden on my friends and family, but I’m happy to say that I’ve made a lot of progress dealing with past trauma and I’m on the road to recovery, no matter how confusing and chaotic it may be. 
          
          A lot of people are out of my life— my dad, toxic exes, shitty friends— but life is better without them. I know I’ll have times in the future when I’ll want to give up, but for now I can only stay focused on the people and things I love and getting better. 
          
          Kira x 

So sad you stopped writing... hope you come back and continue black hoodies... its great ff any way... 

like your name, believe there is good. there must be. and you too huh...

Hi Kira. I just read your story “married for a month” and I think it’s fantastic! That said, I also read your author’s note and my heart just broke for you. I truly hope that someone close to you has reached out to you to be there for you and love you and help you get back to a happier place. I wish I could, but it’s hard to give support when it’s only words from a stranger. But sweetie, I DO care!! Life can be shitty, even for a long time, but then it will all of a sudden change into something wonderful that you could never have expected! And that’s not just a platitude! Life is not stagnant, it is ever changing. The hard part is wading through the bad parts without giving in. So I beg you - find something or some one to cling to, to lean on, or whatever it takes to get through, cuz you are a wonderfully talented young lady and the world would be at a huge loss without you. If you’d feel better talking to me, I’ll gladly give you my number! Just hang in there, ok? 
          
          Love you, 
          Tracy

Well. It was my birthday on December 1, and I’m 19. I still have a long ways to go, but I’ll get there eventually. It’s a process, and I’ve had to learn that I’m not going to just magically get better by the time I’m 20. Or by the time I’m 21. I might not ever be completely okay. But I have to strive to try and get there, and even if I make a little progress, it’s better than none at all. 
          
          Anyway, I’m working on a couple things that should be out soon, hopefully. Thank you all for bearing with me through this. 
          
          -Kira J. x

Hello everybody. I posted this in one of my books, but I know not everyone reads it. I wanted to say that simply, I had a very rough couple of months. Anorexia, depression, anxiety— it all relapsed and I was left severely underweight and suffering the emergency room after my second suicide attempt. 
          
          I have a long road to recovery, but this time I have more people who are willing to help me get to a better place mentally and physically. I can’t promise I will update regularly on Wattpad, as I need to focus on recovery. I’m still not in a place where I can honestly say I want to be alive, but I know I have people who care about me enough to help me get there. Thank all of you for sticking around with me and continuing to even through rough and hard times. 
          
          x Kira J.