What do you call this? the feeling of disgust and wanting to throw up but not disgust because you can't stop, the feeling of wanting to drown yourself one day but the next fly and hop on clouds, the desperate craving for tears to simply flow down your face not because you want to cry but because you fear the moment it happens it will not be at an appropriate time! the craving for a hug but also not because you know when you receive it and they say "it's okay" all you will do is bawl and run away after...what do you call that feeling? for the past 2 weeks...it's all I've been feeling when I can feel anything at all.