PatPran143
Hey gurl ! What's up ? How are you doing now ?
BTSMANIAC9
@PatPran143 hii dear. I apologise for the late reply. Life is completely lazy lately and I wasn't interested in anything.. for you?
BTSMANIAC9
per_thyy
Hey dear! Thanks for your support. I really appreciate. Hope you enjoyed my work. If possible, check my other books too and Looking forward for a follow!❤️(っ.❛ ᴗ ❛.)っ
BTSMANIAC9
I've a confession to make!
This is a virtual space—a space for people who are having social anxiety, being introvert, or having fears or traumas or not confident or lacks self esteem... Can express! (I've everything in me!) This space, even though I'm scared to share my thoughts in this space also—but this thing which I'm gonna share—I want it out of my chest!
I know I'll be embarrassed after sometime re-reading it or during kinda realisation hit moment.. but still—
My exams are around the corner but I couldn't focus on my subjects. I've a couple of backlogs, my friends graduated but I'm retaking my papers (I should be ashamed.. yes I'm but only when ppl around me probe) and I've lied to parents that I've only one.. :(
This lie itself is killing me but still there's something that's stopping me from studying. I couldn't put my finger at one but it's like I'm accepting n livin' in my lies almost like enjoying the pain that's caused in me rather than trying to undo it or come out of it..
I couldn't reach out to someone around me for help that's why writing here! ;(
Idk whether writing this here will make things better but I want to overcome it.. but dk what or how to do it!
Do you think I'm torturing myself or I enjoy torturing myself?
Pramu_WP
@BTSMANIAC9 It’s okay. Just don't think much. Fighting!!!!!♥️ And I am so sorry for the late response.
BTSMANIAC9
@Pramu_WP *Huggies* tysm sweetie! Seriously your words feel like a hug! Tysm for encouraging me.. I'll do my best.. no, I'll do more than that.. lysm ❤️ Hope your subject clears off soon! I think retaking papers are part of growing.. I'm learning a lot from that.. more like surviving in the society where I'm unlabelled.. What scares me is that lying to people.. I hate to do it but I'm forced now.. just to save my face b4 others.. back then this quality was one I hated the most.. but now looking at me doing the same is just disgusting myself of it.. Anyways tysm sweetie.. I'm out of words sorry ❤️
Pramu_WP
Again, you are not weak for struggling to study or even for lying out of fear. you didn’t mean to hurt anyone. That's just being human, not any other thing. Sometimes we escape from this, built higher walls when things feel overwhelming. But here you are self aware that you want to over come these all. So girl, fighting!!!!! You have got this. Sending you a big hug.
No, I don't think you are torturing your self or enjoying it. You are hurting and maybe stuck in a same cycle. It's okay. You don't have to figure out all by yourself all at once right now. just take a deep breath, take a step forward, one by one, while doing this listen to some songs, calm down your self, your mind and move forward. Remember one step at a time. That's enough.
And if you ever needed someone, know that I am here just a click away, to listen or remind you are not alone or tell a humourless joke. If not me, then someone. You are not alone in this.
You have got this buddy. So, deep breath, one step at a time. Fighting!!!!!!! Hope you will feel better reading this,just feel even a little lighter not heavier.
Lots of hugs!!!!
♥️♥️♥️
per_thyy
Hey dear! I appreciate your support! Hope you are enjoying my books!(つ✧ω✧)つ
Btw I'm still waiting for your book "love across the Galaxy." Hope you update soon!(☆▽☆)
BTSMANIAC9
@per_thyy your works are really good n I'm enjoying! Update? I don't think it'll be possible anytime soon.. anyways ty for asking though!
PatPran143
Hey sweetie ! What's up ? Haven't seen you here for a few days ......
PatPran143
@BTSMANIAC9 Ohh, best of luck for your exams gurl ! Go nail it ! I'm goood, just a bit of writer's block on the new story, hehe. But I did post a short story to make it up. Life is, as usual, fineee.
BTSMANIAC9
@PatPran143 uh hii! It's just my exams are around the corner so trying to focus on that.. how bout you? No updates on ur new story too. How's life?
Pramu_WP
Hey sis,
I'm panicking right now. Can you check if you can see the profile of Imxxxreading, the writer of Love in the Ashes? Her account seems to have disappeared, and I can't find it anywhere.
Pramu_WP
@BTSMANIAC9 Exactly! Do you any other way to talk with her or anyone close to her. I wonder what happened, hope she is doing well.
PatPran143
Heyy dear ! Thanks for your votes on my book na lysm
BTSMANIAC9
What happened to Wattpad notifications? I'm not receiving any updates.. anyone know why?
Anyways, let's get to the point!
Hi there,
Hope you're doing well!
Another story, which I happened to have little idea but never planned to write nor publish it this soon. But it happened. So this is my new story:
Title: You again?
https://www.wattpad.com/story/389204733?utm _source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content =share_reading&wp_page=reading&wp_uname= BTSMANIAC9
Give your love and support!
Love ya ( ꈍᴗꈍ)
BTSMANIAC9
Hi there
Hope everyone is doing well! ❤️
I apologise for catching up on your time, but would like to share a few things..
I got late into the fandom like—I entered when they started to break apart; almost broke. (ON) BUT it never lessens my obsession on them. To state, their old memories which I see either on IG or YouTube or here in Wattpad as fanfics are only making it bloom like crazy; (thanks to all the creators for making me delusional and also feeding my delulu) I'm almost, no, completely intrigued by them.
It's funny to confess these things but yeah, I couldn't like see someone else like how I see them or imagine them. (I never thought I'd be obsessed with ON!) My other ships have not affected me that badly! They're into my system that badly that sometimes I think myself as toxic for them—I shouldn't have let patpran affect me that badly!
So, to lessen my own toxicity and give them all the happiness which we all always imagine—I started to write a story—now another one for them! (and would like to write more in the future too!)
So kindly support it like read and enjoy them also leave your votes so that our fellow redgreens would be able to see and feel the same!
I don't know how to add the link to the story, therefore I'll mention the title—MIDNIGHT RAIN; checkout in my profile!
I'll post the chapters once I'm done with the half or almost nearing the ending, so that I'd be able to post them regularly to feed your delusion and to kill your anticipation (and importantly not to bail you in middle!)
So that's it!
Fundee na!
Cheers N( •͈ᴗ•͈)
PatPran143
@BTSMANIAC9 It's an honour to be your greatest supporter dear ❤️ I'm glad to be able to cheer you :)
PatPran143
Hello dear author! When are you going to update your story ? I am really looking forward to the next update
PatPran143
@BTSMANIAC9 It's my pleasure to read your story dear author ❤️ I'm excited for your surprise to unfold!
BTSMANIAC9
@PatPran143 oh I'm amazed and honoured to know someone is waiting for my update.. ty and working on it.. soon I'll upload and I've a surprise for readers too!!