AFullTimeShipper

Why do I ruin my life by watching so many animes at once? Why did I start watching One Piece without realizing the amount of episodes it has? Why am I watching and finishing other animes with about 100 episodes but not finish a 12 or 24 episode anime?

I realize i like when a cheerful person likes a person they are friends with and has to keep it a secret then the cheerful person confesses on  accident and the next day they lie and say they were joking or smth and thats when the friend feels something for the cheerful person and gets hurt without realizing their feelings because they were "just joking". 
          
          Or the cheerful person confesses with intent to accept whatever their crush says and they get rejected but they are still friends so they still see each other but the cheerful person acts like nothing happened and tries their best to be cheerful and the friend notices that so they talk to the cheerful person about it and asks if it was about the rejection but the cheerful person says "no, I'll get over it with time. Dont worry about it" or smth like that and then the friend got the tingle hurt feelings and thinks about it for a few days because they are dumb and oblivious to their feelings and tries to ignore the world.
          
          And its always a happy ending story. At least thats from what i read.

Yknow i am looking back at things i wrote in 2017 to now and I CRINGE SO HARD. WHY WAS I LIKE THAT WHAT WAS I THINKING JEEEEEESUS ‍♀️‍♀️‍♀️‍♀️

Y'all I just finished watching Banana Fish and I am just so... so sadddddddds like why. ;-; he didn't have to dieeeeee I'm so unsatisfied with the ending but its the ending and I can't change that. ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-; ;-;

A few minutes ago i heard creeking out my windowwww it could be the tree but i dunnooo i am so paranoid right now istg

Okay so i heard something like a gun shot outside my house but im not sure it was a gun so now im scared and its almost 4 am. halp ;-;

Lol I just realized something 

I NEED UR HELLLLPPPP
          
          
          Plz.

Thanks for adding "Must have been the wind" to your reading list (that list name is hilarious). 
          Hope you enjoy reading it!.
          :p

Maybe quarantine has made me think too much. I realized that there was someone who was with me all this time and i didnt think we were close. Like, im actually really sad because we never really hung out and i realized how cool they were. Im regretting so many things i did but its not like i can change them so I'll try to be better and improve to be an open, happy, and honest person.