BVB_WONDERLAND

Finally got up and made another book!

Beaversnickel

Hey there! Haven’t seen anything written by you in quite a while, so I just wanted to check in with you to see how you are doing. I really hope you are feeling better about things. You’re still in school, right? Do you guys have your Spring/Easter Break next week?? We do here. I’m just really hoping that the weather gets warmer. 
          
          I’ll go for now. Write me back, if you want. Take care, my fellow BVB lover!

Beaversnickel

Ooooo sounds awesome! Oh, hey, guess what!?! I’m going to see BLACK VEIL BRIDES in May!!! I’ve even paid for a VIP pass to meet them! SOOO excited! Anyway, thanks sweetie for writing back
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BVB_WONDERLAND

@Beaversnickel yup I know and sometime this year I hope I will get my second book of you left me here to bleed up so look out for that
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Beaversnickel

Oh! I’m so glad to hear that you are doing well!!  And as much as I love BVB things, I just want you to work on whatever makes you the happiest. I hope you had a great spring break. Please, write back to me sometime, just to let me know how things are going, ok? TTFN!!
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BVB_WONDERLAND

If I say I'm not hungry, and you haven't seen me eat in about three days
          Force me to eat
          If I say im fine don't worry, bring me in a room and tell me
          'its alright to cry' 
          If I keep scratching my wrist and saying it's my bracelets, 
          Go to the bathroom with me and make me show you. 
          If it looks like I haven't brushed my hair in three days Give me a brush and tell me 
          'its not healthy for your hair' 
          If it looks like I haven't slept in about a week, it's cause 
          It's true

BVB_WONDERLAND

I promised two people I would kill myself..but that is getting harder and harder each minute that's going by. I look at my wrist and cry wanting to make my wrist turn to a blood red wine, I want to stain my sheet in blood to show my family I'm not fine. But if I do I'll be locked up..again, but I'm fine remember? It's all in my head Nan! I'm doing it for attention right!?. I'm not Nan, I'm doing cause the numbness I have is making me wonder if I'm still alive or in hell. That's why I do it, to make sure I'm alive, I guess I still am cause the blood still seeps out my veins of my wrist and thighs. But the funny thing is..no matter how much blood I shed or how much cuts I do no matter how deep I go..I still feel dead.

Beaversnickel

How I wish I lived close to you! You need some deep, true, unconditional love!! I’m so worried about you! You said that BVB saved your life - please let them continue to do that!!! Listen to the words that they say so often - you are worth it! We would miss you! Don’t harm yourself cuz the world will do it enough already. Do you want someone to talk to? I can give you my number if you want. I have a good friend who is bi-polar, has PTSD, fibromyalgia and other physical ailments. She was hurting mind, body & soul and I came into her life when she needed me most and helped her get back on her feet and get more stable. But if not me, please talk to someone. Let someone in who cares about you and only truly wants to help. Please!
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