Baby_Bear03

So i have a twitter now so thats great..also Waterparks liked my tweet and I've been fangirling about it for like 30 minutes already 

Random thought: what is your favorite Larry fanfiction author is Niall Horan? I think I would litteraly fucking die if it was.

POSITIVITY CHAIN!! Say 5 good things about yourself and then send it to 10 of your followers.

I was just thinking: if Harry Styles came out as gay, nobody would be surprised. More proud, because he did it at all and he's being himself.

so i got my laptop for school, since school for me starts next week, and ive written a zianourry fanfic and its like 15 pages and its not even half way done. so its long as hell. and idk if i should upload it yet since its not done. do you guys think i should?

I'm driving to an amicon rn with scissors in my hands cuz I like the way they're shaped...and I kinda wanna cut things. My cousin said I'm pysco but idk. I don't know things.

Ahhhhhhh im crying rn cuz I have my spotify list on shuffle and guess wat song comes on....HISTORY!! Wtf, whyyyyyyy!!!!! Come backkkkkkkkkkkkkk plzzzzzzzz!!! I miss you!!!!! I miss One Direction!!! Come backkkkkk!!! Now it's on repeat and my makeup is ruined. I probably look like a raccoon. Ugh!! YOU AND ME GOT A WHOLE LOT OF HISTORY!! WE CAN LIVE FOREVER!!!!!!!! I'M DYING!!! HELP!!! I will legit kill myself if they don't get back together next year...not even lying.

All this Euphoria bullshit is really getting on my nerves. Us Larries honestly don't need to be getting shade thrown at us. We haven't done anything wrong. We believe in their love and write stories about how we perceive it. The AU r a different story but it's still in the same category u know. Anyways, all Euphoria did was sexualize Harry and Louis' relationship. People say that Larry ruined their relationship but c'mon, u have to know the truth. They loved/love eachother and I doubt anything would change that. Cuz honestly, alot of people will act pretty gay towards their best friend but not actually be gay. I totally believe that they r but hey, they might now be and it might just be a huge fantasy to us. I absolutely HATE all this bullshit drama about it. And I fuking hate how fans r putting us Larries down. WE DID NOTHING WRONG MOTHER FUKERS!! JUST LIKE U THINK PEOPLE LOOK CUTE TOGETHER WHEN THEY MIGHT NOT BE, WE DO TO!! just cuz we're different from other fans, does not fuking mean were dumb and gross because we write and read Larry smut or fan fiction. 

So, last night I had a major breakdown. Like a bad one. I had 2 panic attacks. I cried for 3 hours straight. All because my mom got jealous that I had a good time yesterday wit my dad and his girlfriend and her kids. She told my baby sister that I have a new little sister and she cried. Which made me feel like shit because I'm a horrible person. I wasn't there for my little brothers birthday last year of this year. And the same thing wit my little sisters birthday. I'm horrible. I'm a horrible person. My dad told me not to feel guilty and I wasnt. And then my mom told me that my little sister was upset wit me cuz of that and I just busted out crying because I didn't feel guilty. My mom has a habit of making me feel like shit tho. Ever since I was 8. I'm 16 and I still let her words get to me. I'm weak. I'm so weak and I hate it. I hate myself. I know people go through worse things but some people can only handle so much hurting until they break. And I'm getting to my point. And this time I break, I don't know if I'll be able to come back from it..

So..ive been having a bit of an eating issue lately and I'm only posting this on here because nobody reads my announcements. I can't keep anything down and if I do i feel so fat and make myself throw it up. I'm overweight and I hate it. I punish myself if I eat. I cut myself. Every calorie I eat makes me feel that much more heavier. I just want to be skinny. I just want to be happy.