So I though about what I should put here when i realized maybe i should put a poem or 2 i wrote so here is covered depression and i-dont-want-to-be-here
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If you can't trust you heart,
You can't trust anyone.
If your strong,
Never stop fighting.
But I'm weak. 
I've lost all my strength.
I've fought for as long as I could.
Voices in my head beating me in a war,
I can't win.
I was never diagnosed with depression. 
I'm tired I think I'll go lie down. 
Maybe this time I don't wake up. 
People can try.
That's about it.
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I don't want to be here
Dead inside
Fake smile
Plastered happiness 
I want to cry

Self-destructive
Running a one-track mind
Thinking about not dying 
I don't want to be at this party
There are too many people
I don't have any friends 
Thinking there's no way out
Running from a real job
Fuck high school
Middle school was satin's ass 
I just came to the party for the drugs 


Get me the fuck outta here
It's too crowded
People are blocking the only exit
I can't leave
Then he grabs my waist and pulls me upstairs 
He locks the door 
I want to punch him