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@BadSansFan I'm so you had to go through what you did, especially at such a young age. And that you have to deal with the pain it caused you. I know you want to escape that pain, but you dont deserve to die. I understand living with that pain is hard and that pain won't fully go away. But I hope you do find healing. You deserve to live.

@BadSansFan I hear you man. Love can be difficult,  and there is no perfect way to do it. Everyone has flaws, things get messy. It doesn't mean you're a bad person or you're wrong. All you can do is learn from it. You're going through and been  through a lot. It's been heavy on you, as you're friend I wanna take some of the weight of you and give you that support. Theres no shame in asking for help. And I don't believe you ruin everything. You deserve love and attention,  those people who judge and ignore you aren't worth your time and energy. It's not fair for them to treat you like that.  You're to good for them.   Being an odd ball isnt a bad thing, i get it's difficult not fitting with but that doesn't mean who you are is bad. There's poeple out there's who accept you for who you are, worts and all. Also your no ugly duckling. Your smile is Hella cute and whenever I think of you it brightens my day.

I have a weird eye, I wear red framed glasses, I stick to what I like, I can't do or handle physical touch most of the time, I can't love correctly, I break down often, I feel stuck all the time, I ruin everything, I lie to myself, I talk to myself and to my plush Meelo after school every Friday because it listens to me and it doesn't judge me like everyone else does. I just want love and attention, someone who can realize the actual meaning behind each word I say, when I say I'm fine or that I'll be alright. After all, I sit with my pain for a long time. It's normal for me, lots of things are normal for me, but somehow there's nothing normal about me. I don't talk normal, in fact I hardly talk at all and when I do talk people only listen because they don't want to deal with me if they were to tell me to shut up because I'm annoying to them. And I don't think normal, I've always been an oddball, I've always been the ugly duckling of the story but I didn't turn out pretty... I just turned out horrible, and a mess. And yeah, I'll admit it! If I could ever go back, or became "unglitched" like he'd say, I would do the same thing he'd do. I'd simply erase myself! I'd be forgotten by everyone I consider my friends within a month, and to my family? Sure, I'd feel some guilt down there in the nether, but are you serious? If I could back and save myself from my trauma and pain, I wouldn't just approach life differently. It's not like I could just, restart whenever something deeply traumatizing happened to me, it'd be just one chance. I don't care if I would be 6 years old if that scenario ever occurred, before it all started going downhill, I was practically in hell already by age 8! That would be my only chance to die happy, why would I ever waste it? I wasn't stupid then, just naive. As long as nothing interferes, I'd be completely free and dead in 8 minutes. Anyways, sorry for the vent. This will be the only time I do it publicly, it's just because I wanted to feel heard.

[Oh yeah, forgot to mention, there will also be a Tabby & Tool crack lore fic with a bunch of skits and my friends are gonna be there and it's gonna be fun. I'm not just making lore for Undertale AUs and OCs and stuff, I'm also making lore for creators. Creators as in me and my buddies.]

When the time comes and I've opened my requests (Writing only unless I like you, then I could perhaps do a drawing or song request.)
            These are the rules, and they will NOT change unless I make the decision to change them:
            1. Please, very little NSFW content, go crazy with the gore but lovemaking can only be implied or delved into briefly.
            2. I will NOT write proships. This means absolutely NO sibling x sibling, child x adult, victim x perpetrator, pet (animal) x owner, or anything else I deem problematic.
            3. As much as I love OC x canon, I will NOT accept these kinds of requests. I don't know your OC like you do, and I'd rather not go through the trouble of getting to know them for a short story (This rule excludes my friends!)
            4. Most importantly, I will NOT accept requests that have deadlines. I have a life, though I may throw it away, I am still trying my best to fix myself and live it correctly.
            This will be pasted in an announcement when the requests open. They are NOT open yet. Do NOT request anything unless there is a comment below this one that says "[OPEN]" or unless I've announced they are open.
            (If the "[OPEN]" has a "[CLOSED]" comment under it, don't request until the "[CLOSED]" is deleted. I will announce when requests are opened/closed as well, so you'll know as long as you follow me.)

Miscellaneous facts about me:
            I'm panromantic, polyamorous, and demisexual/demiromantic!
            I have haphephobia and scopophobia. They both stem from erotophobia and my autism.
            I am a very affectionate person and I struggle with social cues. It's very often that I struggle to say no and set healthy boundaries.
            I have a very broad music taste! But I stick to mostly soundtrack, indie, pop, and FNF songs.
            I like to make friends!
            I love drawing! I draw a lot, but I do have hiatuses.
            I respond quickly! Within a week at most, unless it's fall/winter/spring/summer break.
            I aspire to be a great writer, artist, and content creator! There are things I won't do, but I appreciate support greatly!

Check out my Soundcloud, I like making music!
            https://soundcloud.com/starheartmenu/tracks