I'm logging off, I hope it's just a break, but honest this account just felt like a way of keeping dead friendships alive. I will mark everything as complete, publishing the ideas left and focusing on my reality and what needs of my own I've been neglecting.
I cant enjoy media like I use to, because in the back of my head I'm trying to adapt it to a fanfiction storyline. And thats so pathetic to me, but in reality it has shown me that I do crave human connections, and instead of dealing with actual people with emotions and mindsets of their own I have regressed into a worse hermit like state that Bilbo Baggins would have been jealous off. But not happy. Because you cant be happy like this. I've been hiding from my responsibilities, ignoring my needs and personal growth by blaming others and not taking control.
That was until now. I do Apologize for this inconvenience and the inconsistency of my story telling. Please unfollow to clear your author logs to prioritize the creators that can do this without been as self destructive as I have been. I'm feeling like Todd from Code Monkeys, and that character was meant to make a mockery of obsessed gamer bros. I cant be that.
I must take my leave, and relearn social interaction and ways of making cash moneys in this capitalist state, instead of hiding my head in the sand from the responsibility that is my existence and experience.
I love you guys, and thank you for sticking with me even when I havent been with the updates. I hope to come back to this site with better stories and ways of entertaining people that are in the same mindset as when I started this channel.