Bailey

I'll keep this message short and simple, I have decided to go on a hiatus and stop writing for a while, much like I did for long period of years in my life before I came onto here to publish stuff. I have other things going on in my life that I want to dedicate my attention and focus to, and additionally to that I have simply grown tired of being on here, so I will not be posting content on here anymore. As well as that, I don't want to leave my stories and content unattended for too long, so as you can probably see, I have unpublished everything. 
          
          I will still likely be using this account for casual reading, but I won't be doing much more than that.
          
               Farewell, and happy early 4th of July. 

I just wanted to pop on here really quick to say that I did it, I came out to my therapist.
          
          Unfortunately our zoom meeting got cut short due bad internet conditions, however I was able to begin discussing about half of it all and I got the main struggle of coming out and saying to her that I'm nonbinary, so that is at least much more progress than I have ever made before, regarding my gender identity and sexual orientation. 
          
          I am still extremely emotional and a bit wound up from it all, so I am most likely going to spend the rest of the day trying to rest, relax, and feel comfortable as I hopefully am able to calmly and slowly mull over everything from the appointment. 
          
          Thank you to those of you who gave me words of support and encouragement when I first posted about me considering to come out to my therapist, every word really helped me as I considered my decision and finally leaned into my choice as I came out to her this morning. 

Well it's my birthday today (officially my birthday at 2:07pm, since that's the time I was born but close enough- ) so I am 19 years old and I still feel stuck in the middle of a life crisis, much like I did 3 years ago. 
          
          Anyway, I'm gonna be spending the day with my friend for my birthday but I might try to write a little when I get back home, because I am already predicting that my anxiety will start kicking in this evening about me coming out to my therapist during my Tuesday zoom meeting with her. So if you've got any oneshot ideas, or even just some asks/questions about my writings please feel free to send them in, it would do a lot of good for me to have a few small things to work on to help me keep myself grounded through my anxiety
          
          I'm a year older and a little more tired than I used to be, but happy birthday to me I guess 
          
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So a small piece of information about me, is I am severely stuck in the closet. I have told most of my friends about how I identify and all that, but none of my family or anyone else for that matter knows. I *did* come out by accident once a few years ago to my mom, however I backed out and lied about what I said I felt and we haven't discussed it since then, because of how just outright odd my mom had been about it. Granted my feelings about my identity have changed since then, so it's probably for the better.. 
          
          I have decided that I want to come out to my therapist, who I will be seeing on Tuesday at my routine zoom appointment, and I am intending to actually come out to her this time. I went to do it last time but my anxiety made me back down and bail from the plan. 
          
          I am.. very nervous. I don't think she'll be rude or anything, she's been very nice so far, but I haven't told any other adults in my life about how I feel. I just so badly want and wish to be able to express myself without the constant stress and worry of potentially upsetting or becoming a source of my relatives' disapproval.. I just want to be out of the closet already. 
          
          I may try and update a few things on here, something to keep me busy whenever my thoughts get a little too much. 
          
          I know this update is very off topic compared to my usual posts, however I just really wanted to say something to at least one person. 

This is probably a dumb question but I thought I'd ask it anyway, so I actually write poems and poetry occasionally, usually over things I'm passionate about, random streaks of inspiration from a very specific person, place, or thing, or sometimes it's just something I write. 
          
          Well I was wondering if I went and made a book for them, if anyone would be interested in reading them? I'm honestly not expecting to get much of a reply about this, but I'm just trying to see if I can get some form of interaction here.
          
          I've really lost my interest in writing and publishing oneshots on here, and honestly I've just been considering moving to a different platform to use as my main instead

This is probably a dumb question but I thought I'd ask it anyway, so I actually write poems and poetry occasionally, usually over things I'm passionate about, random streaks of inspiration from a very specific person, place, or thing, or sometimes it's just something I write. 
          
          Well I was wondering if I went and made a book for them, if anyone would be interested in reading them? I'm honestly not expecting to get much of a reply about this, but I'm just trying to see if I can get some form of interaction here. I've really lost my interest in writing and publishing oneshots on here, and honestly I've just been considering moving to a different platform to use as my main instead. 

Happy pride month y'all ‍

Well I'm finally beginning to feel a bit better at least, not that anyone probably has wondered how I was doing, but I'll post an update for no reason anyway. 
          
          Hopefully I should be able to come around to writing again soon enough, I'm just a bit low on inspiration and I would kinda like some new ideas for *oneshots* specifically, I am not really open to short story or chapter book ideas as I would need an insane amount of focus and energy to do so. 
          
          If you've got any suggestions of pairings/fandoms, ideas for a plot (MPreg or non-MPreg based), or if you've just got a request in mind please feel free to comment or message me about it, I am always open to hearing suggestions unless I state anything otherwise. 

(Slight tw?, mentions of a pet passing away)
          
          I am probably going to be taking a break from publishing anything for a little bit, as I have suddenly experienced some very saddening news as of 1:45pm yesterday. One of the kittens that my cat had a little over a month ago had become very sick over the weekend, and sadly she passed away yesterday afternoon. I am feeling very upset and I am having a hard time completely coping with the news, and I cannot bring myself to focus much on an extensive task such as publishing oneshots. 
          
          If I feel up to it I may try to do a little bit of writing in the background, mainly if I feel like I need a distraction (which I have been needing greatly) but I will not be pushing myself to go about finishing/publishing anything unless I completely feel up to it. 
          
          Hopefully within the next few days I will begin to settle down a little more emotionally, I just need to take some time to take in everything. 

Pardon the extremely late/odd timed update post, but I wanted to say really quick that I'm probably going to be trying to work on my two normal oneshot books (OCs and Fandom) because I would like to try and get a little more adjusted to writing non-MPreg based content. For the longest time the only thing I've written, and roleplayed in the past years, is all MPreg based. So I've become rather used to writing for that rather than just normal scenarios. 
          
          I have already published a oneshot in my Fandom oneshots book, and I have some different pairings already pre-listed as chapters in both that book and the OC one as well, however I am also still open to taking requests as well if anyone is interested in doing so.