Veggie

Anyways, that was my rant. Thanks for reading I guess...
          I'm probably gonna clean rn. It's 1:17 am and I feel sick, I haven't been sleeping at nights and usually slept during the day. I ran a fever earlier and I constantly feel like I'm gonna faint and everything has just been fuzzy I took some medicine to help but it didn't really. 
          I haven't been able to eat without feeling like I'm gonna puke. 
          Anyways, I'm off to clean. Stay safe and at home ❤️

She said it was all jokes and that she was sorry and that she didn't really mean to hurt me. Hell, two of my friends tell me that all the time and keep on telling me that we need to talk it out, and I know that's what should be happening but I just can't, and they don't understand that. A lot of people have told me to talk to her but I can't. I know it was jokes but I feel so fucked up, I fucking hurts. She liked me as a girl, not a boy. She wants a girl, not a boy. She doesn't want me. 
          We were gonna go to the dance together. I asked her and everything. 
          Even if we wouldn't have been able to go with the corona and everything, it still would have been nice the think about it...
          I even told my parents about her, they don't know that we broke up.
          But my mom was finally being supportive of us and even offered to help m pick out things to buy her for her birthday...
          On her birthday we went to the outdoor mall, we got smoothies, we went to Goodwill and tried on random shit, we went to this sushi restaurant and acted like crackheads, we went to this rocky area with a beautiful view of the sunset. We went to this lake area and threw rocks and messed around with the lovers boat. We went to a Mexican restaurant and possibly got food poisoning. We went to the movies and held hands and shared a drink... Everytime there was a jump scares she would cuddle closer to me...
          It felt like an actual date.
          I still fucking love her. A lot. I miss her.
          I want to talk to her.
          But I honestly have no idea how.
          I don't know what to do.
          It hurts. 
          [2/2]

Wanted to give you guys an update about my life. 
          I don't know if you guys knew, but I had gotten together with 4th period cutie a while ago, it was going really great, actually.
          Here's a thing I want y'all to remember:
          She was bisexual.
          Anyways, I wasn't out as trans to anyone, not even my closer friends. Not even on the internet, in fact this may be the first time you guys hear about this. 
          Recently, before and the quarantined stuff happened, I accidentally came out to her.
          I'm not going to get into details but it was in the middle of 4th period, when she found out she shouted "you're trans?!" In front of the entire class. I don't know if anyone was actually paying attention but I know the people at our table did.
          I tried really hard to get her to drop the topic but she wouldn't, I told her I would explain later but she just kept on telling me to explain then. I tried explaining but I couldn't find the right words to. Throughout the rest of the class she kept on asking me and kept on saying how she was dating (deadname) and not Apollo. She said how she had a girlfriend, not a boyfriend. She wouldn't even hold my goddamn hand.
          I thought she would be okay dating me since she was supposedly bisexual, but i guess not.
          I ended up having a breakdown in 5th period causing me to out myself in front of one of my closest friend and in front of just a friend. Elli didn't mind and walked me through most of it(she was my close friend) though the other girl was supportive she didn't really understand, I tried explaining, teary face and all, but she said that I wasnt necessarily trans until I got the surgery etc. 
          So long story short, most people know now, most of those people I don't want knowing. Word is spreading fast. My friend group, my /close/ friend group, is really supportive but I haven't talked to my ex since. 
          [1/2]

If I said I wanted your body would you hold it against me? 
          Anyways! That's not why I've risen from the dead:
          Are y'all interested in a characterxm!reader?
          I was thinking of a vitiligo reader :)
          If you guys do which character do y'all want? 
          I'll be posting the story on my new account:)
          Have a l o v e l y day❤️ 

Heyheyhey! Made a new account! It's @vxggie, I won't be active on this one anymore but I'll try to be on that one! I'm kind o starting over :)

Hey!
          Daily ❤️ Reminder! 
          Don't compare homosexual relationships to heterosexual ones! Even little questions such as "who's the boy in the relationship?" Or "Who's the masculine and who's the feminine one in the relationship?" Etc., Come off as very rude! 
          We're both the male!
          We're both the female!
          We're both the feminine!
          We're both the masculine!
          Or we can both be neither!
          Stop comparing us to heterosexual relationships just to fit your agenda or your "norm"! 
          Also, don't fetishise us or refer to us as objects! 
          Don't be asking for a GBF, gay males are not objects for popular females! 
          Not all gay males are fashion frenzies nor always feminine! 
          Also, when people come out to you, don't assume that they automatically like you! Being a healthy ally is important! So avoid saying things like "as long as you don't flirt with me or anything," or, "just don't fall in love with me/do you have a crush on me?"
          Just because they like your gender it doesn't mean they like you! 

Dad: what took you so long in the bathroom?
          Me: took a shit, tried to wash my makeup off.
          Dad: but you still have some makeup on..?
          Me: never said I succeeded

Today's reminder ❤️
          People apart of the LGBTQIA+ aren't all the same;
          They can be mean
          They can be transphobic/gender-queer-phobic
          They can be biphobic/panphobic
          They can be racist
          They can be sexist
          They can be femme 
          They can be masc
          They can be both
          They can be questioning for the rest of heir lives, and that's okay
          They can be bi-curious or pan-curious
          Being a demifemale/male doesn't make them any less of a person
          Being transgender doesn't make them any less of their corrected gender
          And straight allies/people who identify as heterosexual in general aren't the same either;
          They can be tossed out too
          They can be disowned
          Not all of them are cis
          They can be racist
          They can be sexist
          They can have any phobia of the LGBTQIA+
          They can be depressed 
          They can feel unloved
          They can have tendencies
          Not all of them grow up in a completely straight household 
          They can get anxious in public
          
          Regardless of anyone's sexual orientation, you're human first.
          You're sexual orientation or what you identify as doesn't completely define you, but it doesn't play an important part of your life. Don't let anyone bring you down for it; but don't give an award to every person you see that's apart of the LGBTQIA+ community, we're not all the same.
          
          -a pan/ace

im rarely gonna be on this app anymore, but if anyone still wants to keep in touch we can text on Instagram! my new @ is @keathstillneedssleep
          when you follow me make sure to dm me that you came from wattpad and I'll follow back and we can chat, rant, and roleplay! love you guys ❤️❤️❤️

I follow you, as a fellow Hamilfam and as a weeb!