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A cycle of publishing and unpublishing. Dahil once na-publish ko na, doon ko lang nakikita ang flaws at errors na kailangan ayusin sa story ko. I've thought of revising it na. But I won't discard the raw, unfiltered, unhinged version of this story, "Kilig On The Sideline". I'll keep it. So I could look back to how far I've gone.

I'm lost. I'm currently struggling from a stubborn writer's block. I feel so unmotivated, hindi ko alam paano 'to icucure. One minute, gusto ko magsulat, then when it's time to actually write, I feel tired. I feel a heavy weight on my shoulders. AAAAA

This is a story I've written way back 2023. This is a story inspired by a manhwa I adored. I would say this story has a lot of flaws, when I mean a lot, I meant A LOT. It lacks revision, and are the raw, *mostly* unrevised version of this story. Natengga sa drafts, I planned to publish it here on wattpad once I've finished writing it pero mukhang malabo 'yon mangyari at the state I was back then. Ngayon ko lang naisipan ituloy ulit because I couldn't get this out of my system. I'm well aware that this story is *super* fast-paced and unhinged. Right now, gusto kong matapos ito. Then baka sipagan na ako i-revise and i-edit.
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/347899933

It's been a while since I last posted or wrote anything on this platform. As time goes by, I'm slowly losing the intense passion I had way back 2017, when I breem with hope and enthusiasm about writing my own novel. Sadly, it just doesn't feel the same now. "Wala akong matapos na story", "Palaging sa umpisa lang tapos buburahin din" the cycle of writing then demolishing began to be repetitive that the light I once had slowly dims, and now, it only flickers. Quick flashes of light, of hope. "Baka ngayon kaya ko na" and I start to get back on my knees and reach for a pen and paper, or my phone and type: "Baka ngayon, kaya ko na."
          
          — bllln xoxo