死

hia

It's been a month and a week. But dare I return for good? Honestly speaking. No. Part of me doesn't want to come back. I'm just here to post this message. Classes are also almost over for me. Ey, I lost a few followers which brought my mood down a lot when I logged in just a while ago. I don't know if I want to come back. For the past month, I haven't been able to write anything decent. I always scrapped whatever I wrote because it wasn't good enough. And I just can't finish anything anymore. So I apologize. I'll be on for a bit longer. Then I'll be gone again.
          
          -mack

I'm going to leave.
          
          I'm going to be deleting the app.
          
          I'm going to disappear for the next few months.
          
          I can't do this anymore.
          
          I just can't.
          
          This was Mackenzie/Mack.
          
          And there'll be nothing of me for a long while.
          
          I'm sorry.
          
          Goodbye.

So, my works. All that I've written. I have not had time to just sit down and type and finish it. I've tried over Christmas, but I couldn't because even then I was busy. I even took town "The Constellations That Brought Us Together" because I couldn't rewrite all chapters within a specific amount of time. So i apologize for that. I'm really trying to get some of my works finished. Hopefully, by the second week of March, I can try to get works finished. But for now, I don't think I can update.
          
          I don't think it's just that I didn't have enough time, but also because I'm not as into it as I was before. But I have so much ideas and plots for original works (that I don't currently pursue because of school) that I want to write; that I want to create and form into a physical thing. A book or a game (actual game) or a visual novel type.
          
          So for now, there won't be a lot of updates until March.
          
          I hope whoever reads this and reads what I've written will understand. I apologize.
          
          Thank you.
          
          ~mack

I've been feeling so out of it lately. I can barely write something close to 500 words. I can't seem to continue what I'm doing. And I know very well that something I had said before is indeed crawling up towards me. Etching closer than ever, and maybe it's even close to succeeding. I don't know really. But school has been draining me pretty badly lately. I've been unable to sleep well at times. And there is so much to concentrate on. So much work to keep track of. I've been getting a lot of headaches but I've been trying my best. But the thought of failure is getting to me so badly that it's preventing me from trying to get anything done. Anyways, sorry for this long message. But I'm going to try and get something done, no matter what bullshit I'm currently going through. Thank you and goodbye.

sorry i havent been updating. really busy with school stuff.

Im pretty proud of the new "one-shot" i posted lol

Jfhsydjeud is it normal to be scared of your own birthday? My bday is in a few days, and cause, ive had a history of miserable birthdays so im scared of the outcome, mostly bc its on a saturday and still sembreak. And i think im spending it at home, alone. Bc my cousin and his friend has been so busy with gaming lately that they havent given a shit to anything in our small circle of friends. And everyone else is busy with their own stuff or because their parents wont allow them to leave. I just wanted to play monopoly or uno with them while we have pizza. I mean like, was that too much to ask? Lmao.

Updating soon. I swear.

It's close to 1AM, and I'm going out by 9AM. And I feel like. "I have to say this. So people know." Or some shit like that.
          
          But like. Honestly. One day, I'm gonna stop writing. Not out of loss of interest. But because I've been shown that I just can't keep up. Or that I can't do it for as long as I want to. Because I've been told that I can't get anywhere if I want to keep writing. Sure I'd write snippets of things here and there. But I can't do what I am now. Which is writing fanfiction stories. I mean sure, I have a lot of original ideas. And a lot of "original" stories planned. But no one in my family (includes aunts nd uncles from mom's side) shows interest in them. All that's needed to be shown that I am not a disappointment to them is for me to earn a lot. And I can't do anything about that besides go along with it. I gave up with my current plan path for senior high and college (education system differences lol) and decided to stick with the original. I'm sorry with how depressing this sounds btw.
          
          Goodnight. When I wake up. I'm probably gonna wonder, "what the fuck did i just type?". My emotions and issues have gotten the best of me again.