@Basictales call it irrational but I have a constant anxiety for my loved ones' well being . I am the person who you will find nagging her elders to take timely medicines and lecturing them on importance of health . I just love everyone so much and I just don't want to loose more people in family . It's devastating and heart crushing to loose someone you love and their absence is a forever mark in life . You will find yourself wondering how they would have reacted to your successes , your losses , your happy moments and the sad ones . This emptyness would never go away . You can just heal yourself and bring yourself to acceptance . I hope you find the strength in yourself and come out embracing life's reality .