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Howdy Dowdy, How are you guys doing? I hope you're having a good day/night.
I'm just here to address something, its not super serious, I just wanted you guys to stay updated with what's going on.
So, basically, I've been depressed for the past 3 years (No shit, that's how I ended up on Wattpad LMAO) But we recently, like a month ago recently, figured out that my body was allergic to like the main hormones that make people happy, it was like dopamine, seratonin, and another I don't remember. So basically I had a chemical imbalance and got it fixed, and since then, I've literally been feeling the best. I kid you not, I had never been happier in my life. But just as of last week, I can feel myself slipping back, and it's not a slow slip either, its freaking rapid. I've started having panic attacks in school, some weird nightmare that feels like a memory so I'm not sleeping at night, i'm starting to hate everybody around me even tho they literally treat me the best, and I just don't know what to do. I don't wanna tell my mom Abt it even tho she helped me out sm when I was depressed, cuz we were seriously convinced I was better, and I don't wanna ruin that. And I'm just terrified that I'm going to slip back to where I was and that all of the work I did was for nothing. I don't wanna come on here and just dump this on you guys, but I really need someone to talk to cuz i've been kinda considering death. (I wouldn't do it) but i'm just really going thru it rn but I have to just thug it out, yk? Anyway, also i'm telling y'all this cuz its really gonna effect my chapters being published. They're gonna come out a little slower even tho I just started and I'm so sorry, I really am. I'll let you guys know when I'm better but I just don't wanna be here anymore.
I love you guys sm and I hope you understand. If you're feeling similar to how I just described, please talk to someone, you could even talk to me if you needed. Anyway, thanks for listening to my overload, love y'all<3