Bea_Razlevu

Usually when I feel like this I write or sing. But this time is different, I don't know where to begin. I hate this feeling, I hate this life. Why am I here I ask myself every night.
          It's like September all over again but this time it's worse. This time it's not going away for a long time. I can feel it.
           It hurts it burns it scars.

Is anyone interested in seeing a bit of a story I wrote for my English class?

Guys why am I just so cool *sigh* (;

Would the ever so AMAZING Bea Razlevu bestow thine wisdom upon my feeble mind?
          

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Today I don't feel like doing anything
          I just wanna lay in my bed
          Don't feel like picking up my phone
          So leave a message at the tone
          'Cause today, I swear, I'm not doing anything
          
          -The Lazy song by Bruno Mars

The feelings I can't describe, fighting a loosing battle. Don't even know what I'm fighting. It just feels like I'm loosing. I'm loosing to an enemy I didn't know I had. I am drunk on sadness, drowning in tears, choking on air, yet I don't care. I don't care. I DON'T FREAKING CARE ANYMORE. THE WORLD IS CRUEL AND I'M OVER IT. LIKE COME ON WORLD THROW ME YOUR WORST AND I'LL EITHER BREAK OR COME OUT STRONGER. I'M SERIOUS. I'M DONE CARING

Your favourite person ever is here :) *me*

Do you ever get a little bit tired of life
          Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die
          Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive
          'Cause you gotta survive
          Like your body's in the room but you're not really there
          Like you have empathy inside but you don't really care
          Like you're fresh outta love but it's been in the air
          Am I past repair
          A little bit tired of tryin' to care when I don't
          A little bit tired of quick repairs to cope
          A little bit tired of sinkin'
          There's water in my boat
          I'm barely breathin'
          Tryna stay afloat
          So I got these quick repairs to cope
          Guess I'm just broken and broke
          
          -Numb little bug by Em Beihold

I can't anymore. I don't have it in me to go on. Things change so fast. Friendships don't last. The world is vast- I'm lost in it. I'm lost in my mind, lost in my work, lost in pretending to be ok. 
          
          I lost my phone, I found it
          I lost my keys, I found it
          I lost my way in life, still searching 
          I lost my sanity. That ain't coming back.