BeatenDownAndBroken

Life sucks.

BeatenDownAndBroken

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Ive had a a pretty bad day... I mean not that anyone really cares.. but ive been told constantly that I'm not needed or the person just points out something about me that they don't like or think is wrong. I also ran into some people I haven't seen in a while.... Short story... They beat me up and attempted to throw me over a fence... And they succeeded but I got my arm caught on the top and got cut and it burns a little. I haven't been having the best time. My life is just a mess, I just wish the good things wouldn't get screwed up or leave me. Ya know the people around me would have more faith in someone on a ledge then they would have in me. I just don't know what to do anymore. They keep saying I'm going to end up dead but then they just sit back and watch, they don't bother to see what's wrong or anything, they just make it worse. Yeah okay I get it you don't want to get involved in this, but don't turn around and tell me that I'm shit,worthless, or anything else; cause you know what? I've already thought those things about myself and I've already had people tell me the same thing and it just leads to me thinking and me thinking just leads to what you're all hoping for! I know you don't like me that much and we'll fuck maybe I don't like you that much either but God damn! If I kill myself it's not going to be your choice! I made a promise to the only person that was there for me and I'll be damned if I break it because the same people that are breaking me broke him and I can't let him down; I wont. So go ahead say what you want; it's gonna hurt and I'm going to end up hurting myself, but hey at least you got what you wanted.