Beatriz Akimoto

I’m still learning to mask off a feeling I feel in the middle of a conversation with someone,
          I’m still learning to mute the voices that keep echoing in my head that remind of bad things that happened to me.
          I’m still learning to get over some pain no one knows about.
          I’m still learning to move the day as light as it can be.
          
          I’m still learning to survive. 
          
          -Roadtrip

I love this analogy. 
          
          You are holding a cup of coffee when someone comes along and bumps into you or shakes your arm, making you spill your coffee everywhere.
          
          Why did you spill the coffee? 
          
          "Because someone bumped into me!!!"
          
          Wrong answer.
          
          You spilled the coffee because there was coffee in your cup. 
          
          Had there been tea in the cup, you would have spilled tea.
          
          *Whatever is inside the cup is what will spill out.*
          
          Therefore, when life comes along and shakes you (which WILL happen), whatever is inside you will come out. It's easy to fake it, until you get rattled.
          
          *So we have to ask ourselves... “what's in my cup?"*
          
          When life gets tough, what spills over?
          
          Joy, gratefulness, peace and humility? 
          
          Anger, bitterness, harsh words and reactions? 
          
          Life provides the cup, YOU choose how to fill it. 
          
          Today let's work towards filling our cups with gratitude, forgiveness, joy, words of affirmation; and kindness, gentleness and love for others. 
          
          (Shared from a friend whose cup is full of goodness and inspiration) 

August 7, 2020
          
          We lost you Uncle Brendo.
          
          But i know you are in God's hand already.
          Send my regards to daddy, uncle.
          
          Haaaaays
          
          At least naa nay kakuyog si daddy didto. Uncle ingna unya si daddy na hinay2 lang og sabong og di palabi og inom. Hahahahaha
          
          Kidding aside.
          
          Thank you kaayo uncle sa tanan ninyong natabang sa amo.
          Nahappy kaayo ko na nakakitag amigo si daddy na way sama ka buutan.
          
          Again, rest well uncle.

What's that you've been practicing lately?
          
          "Self-control"
          
          Not everything I feel should be said. 
          To anyone. At anytime. 
          Not every person is worth seeing my kind soft side.
          Not everything should be explained and not everyone would understand.
          My emotions should be precious enough and appreciated. 
          And if not then they shouldn't be exposed.
          
          I learnt that sometimes it takes a lot of pain and dissappointments to be a person who learn to be in control.
          
          -Roadtrip

At some point,
          You will surprise yourself. You'll stop wanting the same things in life.
          You'll stop asking for emotions. You'll stop seeking care.
          You'll stop looking for yourself in people around you.
          You'll stop feeling bad when no one searches for you.
          
          At some point, you'll be okay to know that if you always depend on people.
          You'll never arrive. 
          
          -Roadtrip

"Choose your battles" - Someone once said.
          Try not to lose your energy on things that would need time to be clear.
          Try not to do things for people who don't appreciate it.
          Try not to be there for people who are only there when it's fun.
          Try not to blame someone who doesn't care if they hurt you.
          
          It's harder than it sounds.
          But at the end people will do what they want to do.
          And you'll find yourself emptier each time.
          
          -Roadtrip

God I don't know where I'm going.
          Things are getting tougher than the usual. 
          But I believe you're making me ready for a new journey.
          I know deep inside that you'll be watching me until I get somewhere. 
          
          Until I get where you want me to be.
          
          -Roadtrip

There is beauty and there is beauty that gets extra when we are happy.
          When we are treated the way we always dreamt of.
          When we are loved by someone who wants the world for us.
          When we know that we are worth more than others proved to us. 
          When all our insecurities are secured and all our fears are gone.
          
          There is beauty when there is true love. 
          A beauty that is noticed by everyone. 
          Because when someone is loved, they love everyone and everything else around.
          
          -Roadtrip

My dream wasn't as small as this when I was younger. I still recall how I called the world my own. That I have all the time in the world to chase after the things I wanted. That I can be whoever and whatever I want to be for no one would stop me. But then, most of the good things in life are not really given for free. Because if not, why choosing my dreams now over what the world is asking me for seem to be this wrongful?
          
          —AiBreathe

" She is a weird mix of someone who is always trying to stay away from people.
          And someone who would give you the world if you come closer ".
          
          -Roadtrip