BecomingStar

Sooo... I've been writing. Like, actually productively writing. Anyone reading this is probably like, "Okay, and?" HAHA
          	Well, it's been such an uphill battle as I've been attempting to construct a more full-length piece. The last time I had worked on something that took this much planning and dedication, I unfortunately lost every piece of it due to my life being suddenly uprooted. The loss of all that hard work really scarred my motivation and inspiration. And that impact has lasted for nearly ten years. 
          	When I first discovered this platform, I was amazed to see so many talented writers and their stories, whether it be fanfiction or originals. The well-rounded plots and beautiful imagery in their pieces stirred up a sort of longing within me, but I could only see myself as the reader and never the author. There were a few times where I did try writing something, got a couple of chapters in and ended up just deleting the entire thing. The frustration kept me from trying again for a while. 
          	But today I finished writing a scene that I've been dreaming of for the last two years. This story has quite literally haunted my thoughts and mocked me all this time. One day I just started writing and somehow, I was able to keep it going without feeling the urge to destroy it. 
          	Honestly, it's still hard. A lot of difficult life events have taken place over the past year alone, slowing me down even when my pace felt like it couldn't be any slower. I still have a long way to go, as I've only completed about a third of what I have planned for this piece. But I'm feeling so proud of myself for even that small achievement. 
          	I really can't wait to finish it up and share my work with anyone willing to give it a read. Hopefully soon. ♡

BecomingStar

Sooo... I've been writing. Like, actually productively writing. Anyone reading this is probably like, "Okay, and?" HAHA
          Well, it's been such an uphill battle as I've been attempting to construct a more full-length piece. The last time I had worked on something that took this much planning and dedication, I unfortunately lost every piece of it due to my life being suddenly uprooted. The loss of all that hard work really scarred my motivation and inspiration. And that impact has lasted for nearly ten years. 
          When I first discovered this platform, I was amazed to see so many talented writers and their stories, whether it be fanfiction or originals. The well-rounded plots and beautiful imagery in their pieces stirred up a sort of longing within me, but I could only see myself as the reader and never the author. There were a few times where I did try writing something, got a couple of chapters in and ended up just deleting the entire thing. The frustration kept me from trying again for a while. 
          But today I finished writing a scene that I've been dreaming of for the last two years. This story has quite literally haunted my thoughts and mocked me all this time. One day I just started writing and somehow, I was able to keep it going without feeling the urge to destroy it. 
          Honestly, it's still hard. A lot of difficult life events have taken place over the past year alone, slowing me down even when my pace felt like it couldn't be any slower. I still have a long way to go, as I've only completed about a third of what I have planned for this piece. But I'm feeling so proud of myself for even that small achievement. 
          I really can't wait to finish it up and share my work with anyone willing to give it a read. Hopefully soon. ♡

4everSherlocked

Hey there! Just have to say that I am really enjoying your story (I mean, the horror side of it is hard to read, but it’s really well written)! 
          
          I can’t wait to finish it and I hope that you continue posting books! Have a great day!

4everSherlocked

@BecomingStar No need to thank me since it's true! I'm glad that my words could made you happy! I don't understand how you don't have more followers, I swear. (I'm also glad that you didn't seem to mind my wonky comments). 
            
            You did awesome to finish writing the book that you did! I really enjoyed it a lot. I am excited to hear that you are working on another piece! I'll have to check that out as well whenever you drop it. I'll definitely stay tuned, no worries! 
            
            Also, just so you know, you're welcome to drop a message anytime. Won't bother me at all!
            
            Have a great day! <3
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BecomingStar

@4everSherlocked Oh dear, thank you so much for reaching out and sharing such kind words! It truly does mean a lot to me. <3 
            I am still shocked that I wrote such a macabre piece, as someone who has a hard time with horror genres myself. I really don't know what got into me... haha. 
            But I am thankful to have finally FINISHED something and am able to share it here. Even though it is just a short story, it has sparked a newfound motivation within me to continue writing! Reading your comments has really helped that spark grow! (And it's only been two days lol)
            I am currently working on another piece I had started a while back but stepped away from when I started to feel discouraged. It is something that has been on my mind constantly, and I'm always thinking of new plot points regarding it, but I could never sit down and execute my thoughts. This will be a more "full length" book when it is done. 
            I just can't guarantee anything as I am trying to treat my writing time with kindness and patience for now so that I can rebuild my relationship with it in a healthy way. 
            I am also hoping to post another short story around Christmas time! A little "Christmas Special" if you will! 
            So definitely stay tuned! 
            And again, thank you so much!! <3 <3
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BecomingStar

Writing here is a bit strange to me, as I've never been a person to gather attention. 
          
          But I just wanted to say that I finally published my first story, Hunted! 
          It's just a short story, with relatively short chapters, but I hope that whoever reads it finds it enjoyable. It's an idea I had for Halloween, so it definitely has a lot of gore and death in it... BUT! The ending is happy and quite sweet if you can manage until the end! 
          
          Thank you to anybody who checks it out!

WhatAtinyWorld

Hello!!! Was just thinking about you. If you ever leave wp tell me before you do okay? TT

BecomingStar

@WhatAtinyWorld I can't really say if it was helping or not. I had only been going for about two months before everything suddenly halted. It wasn't enough time to really get into things. But I've just been carrying the weight of it all for so long, shoving it down like it never bothered me, and it seems it's all catching up to me now. I'm just at a point where I'd really like to go through and face it all so that I can finally live. 
            It really is such an annoying and painful process to find the right therapist and hope that insurance will cover it. I do think that the right person can help, though. As long as the person on the receiving end is ready and willing for that help. At the same time, though, I have my doubts. I can preach such inspiring and life changing words to others and know deep down that I should be applying them to myself, but I don't know how. And I'm not sure a therapist can help me with that.. But we never know unless we try.
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WhatAtinyWorld

@BecomingStar oh (⁠っ⁠˘̩⁠╭⁠╮⁠˘̩⁠)⁠っ I'm especially sorry about therapy... It seems like it helps you? I've been thinking about going back to therapy myself for like the last month or so, I think it'd be really helpful, but it's a lot of work to find one and deal with insurance
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BecomingStar

@WhatAtinyWorld It's really too much to explain simply. Though, I'm sure you'd understand if I say that when you think you're already juggling enough, life likes to throw more balls at you, making you drop everything all at once. :/ Continuing with therapy isn't possible for me right now, so I'm stuck finding my own ways to cope, which mostly consist of distractions, pretending, and dissociation. It's not the healthiest, but honestly, if it keeps me afloat, then that's the goal for now. One day at a time. <3
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WhatAtinyWorld

Hi!! I just read the message on my board ❤️ you seem really kind and thoughtful. I hope you can publish a book soon! Are you working on any right now?

BecomingStar

@WhatAtinyWorld Hellooo  Thank you for the kind words! Actually, that's funny because I was thinking the same thing about you. I enjoy reading your posts when I get the notifications. Especially when you share a quote of some sort or an excerpt from something you read and then follow it up with your own thoughts. I find myself impressed by the way you interpret and perceive the information you've learned. I actually started following you because of the comments you leave in some of the books I've read!
            As for writing, I have a couple of different things that I've been gradually working on, and NUMEROUS story/plot ideas noted that I am very eager to explore. 
            However, recently, my mental health sort of declined, and it's been a struggle to keep my focus, even for things I WANT to do. So I'm taking it slow because I don't want to harm my relationship with writing any more than I already had in the past. It's wild to think that I used to escape reality by writing for hours, but now I seem to become easily overwhelmed by something I once found so much comfort in. I don't want to give up, though. And I hope that I can publish something soon.
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