To sum me up in just two words?

Inferiority complex.

If you're here to read, here, take this bottle of bleach to rid yourself of the memory of ever reading any of my terrible literature.

Follow my buddies @SenorLudicolo and @MadameMoiselleMary.
Tell them Belette sent you. Or don't. Do whatever you want. If I said I didn't care, that'd be a lie, because I do. To an extent. But it's not like to can force you. So feel free to do whatever you want. Nothing I can do about it.