@BentandBroken1999
Ive been lost in a countless stream of doubt... Things change, sometimes slow sometimes fast but at the end change is change. Also in the end.. Death is a new beginning and I know this to be a true fact because of what ive been hearing and seeing. They arent alive but they were at sone point they tell me that the earth will take me back and realse me over and over agin unto its self ive come to belive this true.
Hey uncle terry are you there....?
Im sorry if i caught you at a bad time but I just wanted to ask you if your happy... Did you find your peace? Because..... Im lost if I'm honest its hard to think that we wont have our talks shitting on alienware and how everyone pays for their name..... Anyways if you could please.... Talk to me when you get a chace.....
Im just a fool... i stay when i should go and i go when i should stay it hurts to know youve fucked up on so many levels
It hurts when you lay awake at night begging to die in silence as not to wake people sleeping, but you lay there doing this to yourself while the people who hurt you sleep wonderful with no worries. It hurts when you realize how much youve fucked up and cant go back a fix it. What is one to do? Drugs? Possibly. Ignore it all till you break down? No. Die? Last resort.
I cant fucking belive i did thus why am i going back into my own ways i hurt myself.... and her she doesn't know yet but i have to tell her..... im a piece of shit..... i need to doe swallow the rest of my pills and die....
Its time to go.... im done..... im a fuck up.... a failure..... a terrible son.... a horrible boyfriend.... its time to go.... good bye....
Baby boy, you are not a horrible boyfriend I promise. Please don't say good bye, don't say it's time to go because it isn't your time yet. I know you are hurting, but love you will get through it because you are stronger than you think. That's one reason why I love you. Don't think you're a fuck up nor a failure. You're human and we make mistakes. It's life, but my love you are amazing, loving, and most importantly, alive.
Looking at the old flags..... it kills.... i remember what you told me when i got into it when we tied the two flags together.. you said " once these are tied your in this shit for life we are brothers dont break that pact" and you hit me in the shoulder.... i smile now thinking about that day... but thinking of switching is killing me.. but ive taken to many falls for people whk wouldnt do the same... and your gone so that makes it ten times worse.... because its my fault.... Im sorry..
@BentandBroken1999 im sorry love, i know its hard to break that pact. Its going to be tough, but do you want to stay with your old family or get a new one?