I feel like a failure. I couldn't stop a friend of mine from committing suicide. I just cant take it. Over and over, the things I love and have are always leaving. I suppose my turn to go will be coming up soon. But please dont feel bad! It would be nice to finally be able to be free. If you don't see me online for the next few days, please just know I'm trying to recover. I'm sorry that I bothered you with this vent. But hey, at least my depression got worse!