BillieizmyKing666

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My depression has gotten better but my anxiety is shit.
          	
          	Question: 
          	Is it attention-seeking when I vent on here? If so I'll stop. It's just sorta how I let things out. It somewhat makes me feel better.

BillieizmyKing666

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Dude. All of these fucking artists make it seem like cheating is the only thing people can do. Someone is always cheating on someone. I've had my fair share with it. I've been cheated on, and I have cheated . Yeah, I'm a monster . I get that. I hate myself too . Fuck me, right.? But reading books with this shit just makes me feel worse. Fuck dude .

BillieizmyKing666

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I wish I could make my mental health dissappear. Dude, if I could make it dissappear I'd actually be more loved and shit. And less people would've left me lol. Dude, if I could just get rid of it all that'd be amazing. That would be my dream, but ik that is never going to happen bcuz that's not a thing. Everyone has issues. No matter what. Even if you can't seem them.

BillieizmyKing666

I cannot explain how much my boyfriend means to me. He's literally the best fuckin person ever. Istg if I do something stupid and lose him, I'm losing myself. I will forever hate myself if I mess this up. I truly do love him. He deserves better, but I'm way too selfish to let him go. I am in love with him. I love you, Cole. <3

BillieizmyKing666

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A lil advice:
           This may not work for everyone. But from personal experience, If you just wear what you wanna wear and are comfy in, it's at least easier to love yourself. Usually, I don't go all out on my physical appearance. I always just wear sweatpants and a tshirt. But when I wear other things, a little makeup, and a shit ton of jewlery, I look at myself and actually feel beautiful. And yeah, I should feel that without all of that, but it's still difficult for me. Enough abt me, don't rlly listen to ppl when they say you don't need to wear makeup or anything like that. Well, do but don't. I get where they're coming from because makeup is basically putting on a mask to "hide" your true face. Which, you should always be yourself. Don't let anyone define you as a person, don't change yourself for anyone. Just be YOU. But with that being said, it takes time to love yourself and just drop those masks of makeup. So just take your time. You can wear makeup. You look beautiful/handsome/pretty with or without makeup. But just try and ease off on it and go out with absolutely no makeup on sometimes. Try to anyway. And when you don't wear makeup or things like that, look in the mirror and look really hard at yourself. Point out the things you love. Then ask yourself why you hate the things you do. And just keep in mind, a lot of people's expectations are extremely high for "hot" people. And those people are the ones that starve themselves to be skinny, use makeup and/or surgery to fit those profiles. Or dye they're hair. Absolutely no one is perfect. Even if they are naturally beautiful and "perfect", they usually(USUALLY) have a shitty personality or just thing they are better than everyone else or something. Overall, every body and every size is beautiful. We all have our issues, and that's okay. Just confront them and fight them. You all are absolutely beautiful. Just be YOURSELF. I love you all<3

BillieizmyKing666

@BillieizmyKing666 aw, I'm so sorry. Someday you'll get to be yourself <3
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Madisonyoung2009

Thanks I can't be myself though because of my mother so I kinda just spent my new year crying in a truck my mother just can't actually accept me so yeah depression 
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Maelovestoread

Hello! Sorry to bother but I was wondering if you could take a look at my story and provide me with some feedback. Its okay if not! Thank you! https://www.wattpad.com/story/326797858

BillieizmyKing666

@Maelovestoread I would, but I try to stay away from books that have trauma in it. I'm sorry!
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