BillyWonkaSaysMeow

Hey so you commented that people could come and talk to you if they needed it little while ago so here I am... 
          
          Ok so I lost my grandfather a while back... and I feel like the first few days were just denial... but then it really hit me that I am never actually gonna see him again... and never talk to him again... and I feel like shit for crying and not trying to just deal with it... but I lost my best friend... at school I had been falling behind on my science which I am usually really good at and the teacher asked if there was something wrong because I had been falling behind and that I could talk to her... but I said no... because I felt as though I could not do that for some reason... I am able tot tell you because you can’t see me so no judgment... but I am kinda just bottling up all of my emotions because this is also very hard on my mum cause she lost her dad... but I do not want to cry in front of her and I feel like I can’t tell her my problems because I don’t want to hurt her in any way...