yo red guy kinda...

hey, we used to talk - was wondering if maybe we could catch up, exchange discords? my page has changed a bit, idk if youd remember but 
          its wil, lol

sorry if anyones dm-ed me, im having issues with my dms not wanting to work and im trying to fix it, so idk how long itll be before i reapond (this usually fixes itself in a few days but im ther rying to get it working before then :rolling_eyes:)

might be a long shot but in getting into hazbin hotel and was wondering if anyone would be down for an angel/husk rp

(this is oliver, not tyler btw)
          
          i just i thought of something and wanna just say it somewhere and cant access my actual wattpad acct, im not saying names but i just... idk, i ned to put this out there cause its the only way ive been able to listen to this song (literally my fucking favorite song-) and it hurts but its the only way i can process the lyrics anymore
          
          
          
          'amnesia was her name' by lemon demon except its about slowly realizing that the person you're with isnt the person you fell in love with anymore, and you arent even sure who that person was and you dont know who they are now. theyre so drastically differebt and its painful being with them but you cant imagine breaking up with them until you have such a bad breakdown that you almost had to be sent to a mental health facility and wake up the next day numb, and empty, and hollow because you realized you broke up with them. you did it. youre mourning something that shouldve died long ago but you cant even feel relief, just confusion and pain and the overwhelming urge to take it back. but you cant. you cant take it back and you cant go back to who they were because its not who they are, and they cant pretend it didnt happen. and itd be unfair of you to take it back because everyone is so happy you finally did it because they knew it wasnt healthy for you, and it wouldnt be fair to them to immediately go back.
          
          so you're just... silent.

tw: venting
          
          
          
          i love getting told that im hogging too much of my boyfriend's time for him to do shit.
          
          its not like i have insisted he does other plans instead of hanging out with me, and felt guilty anytime he cancelled because i ddint wanna stop him from doing it.
          
          yeah definitely not. id never have panic attacks because i felt like a terrible person for him cancelling plans to comfort me when i just wanted someone to vent to for a few minutes.
          
          but yeah no, im hogging too much of his time from his girlfriend. his girlfriend that i JUST confronted him about how he puts her needs above mine every fucking time. his girlfriend who gets to hang out with him on vrchat for hours. his girlfriend who can play fucking videogames with him in his downtime while i havw to wait FUCKING HOURS FOR HIM TO RETURN MY GODDAMN MOTHRR FUCKING TEXTS WHEN IM JUST SAYING SOMETHING LIKE 'I LOVE YOU'
          
          but yeah, im hogging too much of the time meant for her, because they both work full time jobs. 
          its not like 'their' time is literally all the time he is off work
          
          cause i am totally able to talk to him while hes at work. yeah. so just once again i am the fucking problem. like. always.

anyone wan do lilspace rp?
          
          im smal an wan lilspace rp pleaseeeee

when your boyfriend tells you to go to bed early because hes got /plans/ for you when you wake up (plans that involve you not being able to walk afterwards) and you enthusiastically agree, but decide to watch a youtube video first
          
          and you blink and suddenly youve watched a dozen videos and its 4 am...

also sorry for little to no responses, ive been on new meds and just generally feeling like shit so-

wen you make a joke about having a kink amd your friend threatens to actually never talk to you again if you did have it, and you do, so just gotta keep your mouth shut and say some shit like "yeah id throw myself off a cliff if i had that kink" 
          
          yeah
          fun

hi im not dead
          
          would anyone wanna rp? preferrably sanders sides or dhmis, and also preferrably (but doesnt have to be) smut 
          
          i dont do OCs though, so im sorry on that bit. 
          
          yeah, have a good day and either reply here or dm me if you wanna rp
          
          (if we have an old one i havent responded to, tag me and ill let you know if i lost interest or forgot)