Bee

I’m in Ireland for vacation and I’m leaving for Britain tomorrow morning… I lowk can’t wait to go home after to see my cats

AAAAAAAAAA MY HAN JISUNG FANFIC JUST HIT HER 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY 

So I told him I liked him… but he doesn’t feel the same and I feel like an idiot. He’s been treating me like a queen bc I was his friend. Sure his crushes aren’t anything like me but he constantly says that I’m pretty and gorgeous. Stupid fucking signals.

So yall know my gbsf right? yk the one that constantly compliments me and says he misses me everyday? Well I think I know why I never had a crush on anyone… bc he’s the standard. And I’ve been non stop thinking about him for a while now and idk what to do. If I like him I’m not going to be happy bc his crush look NOTHING like me. My friend thinks I like him but idk if he’s biased bc he’s been there since the beginning 

I’ve decided… im going to cross post. I’m going to write a fic and post it on both :D if it’s good enough I’ll post it on here too I have a need to start over with an account and start at 0 followers and be happy that my story got 5 views 

I’m tempted to post stuff on other sites… idk if I should do Quotev or Ao3… I’m inexperienced when it comes to both but I’ve been on Quotev longer and I only use Ao3 if I need a specific trope. 

When I do my bimonthly check of Quotev, I get scared bc I was 8-11 being on that site and writing horrendous fics and for some reason thought it would be a good idea to sign up to be an editor and all I did was run chapters through Grammarly and think it’s good…

I set myself up for failure… I’m writing romance and I haven’t even dated anyone yet :|

If I had to be a maid for skz and clean their dorms, I would be scared to step into the 3racha+hyunjin dorm… it’s either so dirty or smells so bad. On the other hand, I would love the clean the other dorm. 

I worry that I’m losing Han as my bias(he has been for 3 years now) and then I realize that he’s the only one who I made a playlist of…