memexis

missing you every day 
          - AJ

this is AJ aka @vosmos and i just logged in on alexis' account just to check in. oh god i miss her 

RIP Alexis, miss you x

R.I.P Alex ❤️

I'm so sorry.... This is horrible....

I'm sorry for your loss.

oh my glob that profile pic is hilarious

hello! im sorry i havent been on, but i have a reason, followed by bad news.
          
          reason: a very very close friend of mine committed suicide a few days ago, which has hit me really hard. natalie is supporting me, helping me and all, but shes in canada right now whilst i am visitng London, first time out the country :/ which makes it hard for us to communicate.
          
          bad news: I'm taking a break from this account. I'm going through so much shït right now, i don't have the time to handle anything. like i just don't feel right anymore. i haven't felt right for years, but the feeling is stronger than before. i also feel like I'm loosing who i am. who i stand for. my depression has also gotten worse, and tbh, ive turned back to it again. if ye know what i mean. i just feel so lost, alone, scared, and angry. all these feelings are just building up inside me, making me wish i could just let go. but i dont. thats what depression does, for most. i just dont have the inspiration to do anything. i just want to end my life and get over with everything. im sorry. im sorry for ranting about my problems here, i just cant do it anymore. im not ending my life although in case your wondering. yet. im just taking a break from everything which means, no more jokes from me, no more updating (as if i even updated any of my stories pfft), and no more... alex.
          
          im sorry.
          
          goodbye
          
          -alexis

I love your comment about the homophobic peeps xD made me laugh 

i also have a very important news, its not very great news tho, to those who read all my one direction fanfictions
          
          i will not be updating them, Protecting, Harry, etc etc, anymore bc i have lost inspiration in writing them. im very sorry.
          
          It's just I've been kinda fading out of my One Direction phase. I still love One Direction, really! It's just I kinda have been ignoring them for quite some time and I've gotten into more things and yeah. It's not a great excuse, I know, but I have no idea what to write about them anymore :/