Wolf

I'm thinking of telling my mother that I'm a lesbian but I'm scared she'll disown me or punish me. I...I don't wanna lie about my sexuality but it hurts me so much. I don't wanna lose my home. I don't wanna be hated by my parents but then again, wouldn't I be used to the same pain? It's controlling me instead of me controlling it. I have thoughts of dying as well. ~Wolf

Well...I cried twice today! And I wish I never joined the talent development program in my school at all. My life sucks again because I might lose my Friend from her cutting herself. Now, my emotional pain is worst. Life’s such a great experience! 

Do you guys think being used to depression is bad or good?

So I have camp today and I’ll be staying in school for two days and one night....I can’t see my Sister and mum (Don’t like my dad because he likes to trick and lie to me)til tomorrow afternoon...? Idk I just know I hate school and I hate camp. It’s nice to go for a camp we didn’t sign up for because we were FORCED to go. It’s nice to be forced and tricked. 

I’m pretty sure my dirty mind has just increased from a level 5 to a level 18 because now I’m thinking about boobs, butts and thighs. Why is this happening now!? I need to go to school tomorrow and I’m pretty the girls at my new school are gonna kill me with how they look,act and sound! Help me someone T^T

I'm pissed off, a bastard on youtube said XXXTENTACION (Inspirational man because he's was changing himself to be good) was still alive and faked his death to make a music video. IT WAS ON THE FUCKING NEWS WHEN HE DIED! HE WAS SHOT AND THAT BITCH JUST GOES ON YOUTUBE AND SAYS "He isn't dead. He faked it all you dumbasses" Holy shit I replied to him in the rudest way I could even though I'm nice and calm that just pissed me off and switched my rage mode on. 
          Bless your amazing soul XXXTENTACION, you're an amazing man. If only you didn't die at the age of 20.
          Btw the guy's name is Your_name 
          Bitch needs to die already. Fucking asshole. Please excuse me for saying these curse words but I'm just too angry.

Hey...I have some questions...Why am I still alive when I've lost so many things in my life...Why am I still here when I just wanna end it all...Why am I still smiling when all I feel in pain and depression...? I can't do it...I draw to calm myself but now it doesn't work...I listen to songs to stop the tears from coming but it keeps coming no matter what...I write stories I keep a secret and small note to encourage myself to continue to live but it's not working now...I can't do it yet every time I look at my family...my friends... I think to myself "Is it worth it? To die and leave the ones who I love? Just to end my suffering and create new ones?" My answer still remains the same. "If I wish to watch my family suffer, yes. If I wish to watch my family continue a life where I can help them, no." Why is it so hard in life?! It's so easy to die but hard to live! Life may be beautiful, love may be amazing but it both hurts you so much you feel as if you want to end everything in your life...I can't take so many injuries when two girls from my school get pampered for getting a small scratch on them...Why?! Why do I still care so much about those two girls when they've caused me so much trouble and pain in me?! Is it because I pity them?! Is it because I care so much about them?! I can't take it anymore! I want to just end my friendship with both girls! They've completely destroyed my soul and I'm still picking up every piece I find around me! I can't fucking take it anymore! I want them to leave me alone! It hurts! IT HURTS SO FUCKING MUCH I JUST WANT TO DIE! I'VE HAD ENOUGH WITH THOSE FUCKING BRATS!

Your reading list titled "gay shit" is literally me everyday

Thank you for adding the book YouRiko unto your three reading list

Thanks for the vote Cap!