Hey guys, how is life? I have no one to tell this to since even my closest siblings are dumb enough to know their brother is queer. So I would share my recent queer stories with you people.
I just got into college early this year and it’s been a torture to my sexual life. I mean have had crushes on guys who don’t even know I exist but one particular guy sticks out.
His name is Nelson. He is a dark, tall, really muscled and handsome guy. Just how I like them!!!
He is a year above me so I only see him once in a day on campus which is depressing.
Out of all the guys I have crushed on so far I have always gotten over them but not Nelson. Nelson is different I would be crazy to say I am almost in love.
The most saddening thing is that I live in Lagos, Nigeria. Which is one of the most homophobic place on earth.
But I have noticed youths on campus are more liberal and accepting not that gay people openly show affection on campus? We still have a long way to go before that can happen. But I feel like they are more liberal because there are some effeminate guys who are obviously gay by their effeminate acts but people don’t seem to bother. One would expect students to bully them in a country like Nigeria but they just make fun about them not in their presence though.
So back to Nelson, I have been crossing paths with him this days and my feelings keep growing and I don’t know what to do.
Don’t even try advising me to talk to him because I would feel like a creep and he is a year above me so we don’t have common ground on what to talk about.
And it would be terrible to ask him out because I don’t know if he is homophobic. Technically everybody is homophobic here in Nigeria, including me. We don’t just openly declare our love for same sex like that to prevent raised eyebrows.
And besides I would bet every penny I have that he doesn’t know I exist.
So what do I do?