Melanin Hijabi Queen

But there’s this guy from uni that I am chatting to and like we were texting and I was legit annoying him a lot… so he said shush to me and me out of reflex said MAKE ME!! 
          
          Fudge I am telling u the next day when we met he grabbed me by the neck leaned on me and asked YOU STILL WANT ME TO DO IT?? * butterflies*

Omg guys guess what… so like on insta someone from Guinea  created a go on snap for all of us to k each other from around the world… anyways there was this one guy his like a few months older than me … 
          Anyways he’s sooo handsome like omg, he got sharp jawline, beautiful melanin, his like 1foot taller than me and he is MUSLIM and FULANI like Daymnn he got it all … BUTTT…
          He lives some other country away from me by miles  
          
          I am in Pain 

Guess who is going to be stupid and stay with a guy that doesn't treat her the right way, just because she wants free cuddles and hugs.....
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          If u said me then u are mf right.... I think i might as well give up on my stupid self... I kinda feel bad tho cuz he wants us to be together tjo he doesn't say it cuz i have rejected him so many times.. But now he wants us to be friends who hug and ciddle together all the time...
          
          
          
          I have more to say but i will tell yall another time... Ps HAPPY MF NEW YEAR!!! 

Bruhhh I am tired of my insecurities fkn hell. Is there any way I can shut my mind and forget abt all the wrong shit abt my own self, its frustrating atp ^_^

Imagine sharing ur deepest and darkest secrets with someone and then the next thing u k they are not part of ur life nm....
          
          Daymn it hurts to even remember :'(

I wish ai could get him back in my life:(
          
          I really had imagined so much for us, not as lovers but as best friends. It was wierd when I started going through weeks without texting or calling u when we used to call each other every night and text through the day.
          
          I tried connecting back but its like every time i took 1 step front u took 10 back. It hurts, it hurts really bad to watch u drift away so soon. What hurts the most is that u really had a great impact in my life and to k that ur motivational speaches, ur constant reassurance is not here anymore... That breaks my heart....
          
          
          BUT WE LIVE THE SAME WAY WE DID WHEN U WEREN'T HERE :/

Imma start posting here abt my feelings as no one knows me here except my best friend.
          
          I feel like life is just so flippin boring rn tho but i will tell u guys shit that happened to me before

Hey can I ask when are you publishing your story because I would love to read it ❤️

Just noticed you've given my story a chance. So I'm dropping by to let you know that I truly appreciate it and hope you'll find my work worth-it. Feedback and comments are more than welcome. Once again, thank you so much for making my day better <3 

I have cried so much tonight "I got no more tears to cry". Daymn my brain still hasn't registered that Joel left CNCO ... Its deep bro ughh. Tho I still will be his fan