Blazing

EFTPOH rewrite out on the 1st of Jan! Be prepared for actual effort and longer chapters <3

me, everyday: i am completely normal about this interest
          yknow, like a liar.
          FUCK I MISS DESERT DUO
          also yeah im alive hi, it's been over a year since i've said anything on this board, but people who enjoy me (for whatever reason) will have been seeing my Blazingverse updates sometimes so yeh
          Anygays,
          
          i've pretty much abandoned this account, i only use wattpad for like 6 good fics nowadays. i'll still post something eventually, idk what tho. i'm too busy vibing on AO3 and stuff, which will be linked in my account description
          k byeeee

Hmmmmmmmm.....
          Brain wants me to write a piece of half-cringe.
          (Typical cringe characters at first [y/n honestly] but like...it's not that bad?)
          would any of you guys read it?

I AM NO LONGER 159cm
          I AM NOW
          163cm
          Goodbye, 5'3".
          Hello, 5'4".

Haha, time to curl up in a ball and DIE.
          Relapsing suuuucks, especially when it's from being an immersive reader.
          Immersive reader: To escape from the hell that is reality, the reader dives so deep into books that they are directly affected by the character's mental and emotional states. If they are a deep enough reader (I am! haha) they may even get phantom pains/tingles from reading. Habits can be permanently stay for readers.
          
          Because of me using reading as an escape from reality, I can't read things where many things are lost. (It doesn't have to be physical. It can be emotional or mental. e.g. Trust, sanity, etc.) It's because I have lost many things in real life.
          I relapsed because I was reading a really good book, but it started getting too real for me.
          Sanity, friendship, maybe even lives the way it was suggesting, was lost.
          I couldn't.
          I had been hanging by a thread for a while and that snapped it. A dainty pair of scissors with a poisoned edge.
          I relapsed, which both helped and made it worse.
          Hell this is a long rant.

I have wackass dreams
          (This has been reposted from a discord convo.)
          So the dreams themselves are fine
          But the endings
          Weird
          weird as hell
          This has happened to the last 2 dreams I remember
          So like
          in both of these dreams, I am me
          Just a bit
          op
          and stuff
          AT the end
          I appear
          Like, me me
          just a little stronger than usual
          I talk to dream me (well technically this is still dream me- uhhh...)
          and say
          "Let me absorb you. You will still exist in my mind and you will get my memories. Let me free you from this hellscape. (second one) I've already done this. You'll have someone to talk to."
          And like
          I men
          *mean
          The first one was an unholy amalgamation between The Hunger Games and Instinct (a thing i've read)
          The second one was a post-apocalyptic world
          so like
          that's fair ig
          But A B S O R B !?
          weird
          weird as hell

Give back my homo

Threats are magical, are they not?

I JUST FECKING WANT WINGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
          AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
          I WILL COMMIT MASS GENOCIDE FOR THEM
          I WILL KILL ALL MY FRIENDS AND FAMILY
          JUST FOR WINGS

J: AIGHT GUYS, I WANNA UPDATE SOME OF OUR DESIGNS!
          Nacre, Blazing + Blaze: kewl
          J: So! I've already done mine. BUT, I plan to make an area to put all of our updates for BV.
          *Emery appears*
          J: Like that one. It'll let the Creators see our design changes and keep constant updates instead of these kinda jittery ones using the Conversation page.
          Emery: Right. I'm Emery. I technically belong to another 'verse, but since J made me for that verse but really liked my design, she kept me and put me here. In the end, there are 2 of me. One that fits the alt verse, and this one. Mwa!
          Blaze: coulda said that on the update book but whatever