Blood-Bath

You know when I was little I always thought my parents were soul mates. We,being my mom, me and my sister are getting the house ready to sell,so we can move and build our own home some places away from people, but we can't sell the house yet because my dad will get half of the profit. And guess what, and it's going to sound fucked that I say this but,my mom is leaving my dad, and I couldn't be happier, I know it sounds bad but if you knew him,you would understand. But I'm happy, because I don't love him anymore because he's a bitch and hurts me mom,not physically but mentally, and me to he hurts me. SO GUESS WHAT, WE ARE LEAVING THIS ASS HOLE IN THE PAST!!! AND IM PUMPED! He has caused me so much mental health issues and he ain't going to be causing any more soon. I know I sound evil but I can't help it,I'm finally getting away.

I'm watching Andy Griffith with my sister and mom and we have seen it before but god,the more I see it the masochistic and sexist Barney gets. I get it's a old show but BARNEY WOMEN ARE NOT JUST EMOTIONAL ALL THE TIME! IT'S BECAUSE YOU ARE CHEATING ON VELMA LEW! I also don't know how he got all of those women, he is not cute.

I just got stabbed by the safety pin,but I finally fucking found it.

I have a small problem, their is a open safety pin in my bed and I can't find it. It's not on the floor and I took a fridge magnet and dragged it across my bed, what the hell do I do! I am not in the mood to be stabbed. I swear I can not find this little shit. And if it stabs me I will lose my shit, I have State testing next week and I have really bad testing anxiety, I can't handle this. It so small and incredibly not important why does this bother me!??

I find that I joke about my trauma, and then people look at me like I'm the weird one. And I'm always like, "Well atlest I got a funny personal out of is,right guys?", But they never laugh. They just sit there.

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          Bro,apparently my mind doesn't want me to get better,I had a dream last nightand i selfharmd in it,and it almost triggered a relapses... I'm 4 weeks clean, like bitch give me a fucking break.

Ok,can I just say I don't like it when people ask me what my favorite color is. It's a simple question but it's to much for me, I like green, but only a specific shade of it,and then there is red... Not bright red but like the color of blood, but if I tell people that they say it's "weird" but if I just say red.they think it's because of my hair. And then there's brown a color that can go with any thing, but people say it's also "weird", like " NO YOU'RE WEIRD SHARON!!! " . And I love black in white, it's simple, but people are always like "Well black and white are technically not colors, so look pick a different one." And it angers me because I know, I have been doing art my whole life, AND YOU THINK I DON'T KNOW THAT??! I have to much anxiety to give answer to that question, what of I just don't have a favorite color? I don't even know who I am, or what I will be. How do people expect !e to answer that?

God,why do men think it's ok to tell a 14 year old girl to smile?! He looked like he was 50! "Smile your out of school" then when we got to the register "you should smile more,you would better". I can't even go to family dollar with out a weird man saying something about my looks! Like bitch,you're 50! Don't make comments on girls looks! I wanted to punch him, he was so creepy. I was get pads and the worker there says THAT! God,I hate being a woman sometimes. I'm scared, what will it be like when I'm older?

Guess whos father isn't coming home tonight?! And I'm scared because he's drunk as hell and driving, my mom went down to a local bar and he was their making moves on a woman in the bar. He also might need stitches because before he drove away the women told my mom he cut him hand really really deep. I am scared for him,why does he do things like this?

I'm sorry. I don't know why bit I'm sorry. I feel like I let everybody I know down, so,I'm so very sorry