I'm not saying that im not bitter but I know im not better either.... I'm lost right now, like in between denial and acceptance. I can't fall for guys due to a trauma.. more like scared to be in the same situation. I fought the idea of being scared of their entire existence cause hey they're part of this world so instead I learn to befriend them enough for them not to mess with me (like so comfortable they won't even consider breaking the bond) like some sort of defense mechanism. And here I am being attracted to girls because of their vibes, natural nurturing beings that i know I can be safe with. But I still can't cause then I found out both my parents cheat on each other, then I got cheated on by my ex(girl). And now I fall into a place where I can't decide if its still fine to trust others to feel better and feel love or I'm better off here protecting myself against people who can ruin my sanity.
