[neg rant]
My day has been genuinely so shitty.
Woke up and was on my way to school, but started feeling sick so I called my mom to pick me up.
I still feel sick. I don't know why.
And then someone very special to me, very important to me, turned on me. He blocked me the other day, and gave his explanation for it today. Someone told him about my past mistakes, mistakes he had already forgiven me for, and said I'm still doing them. I'm not. He turned on me for this though, when I thought we were doing so well learning to grow and get better for each other, with each other.
I could be angry, I could be sad
But it was so sudden that I don't even know how to feel. How do I process this, genuinely? It hurts, but in a numb sort of way atm, and I'm filled with dread knowing I'm going to feel unfocused and dazed for some time following this. I'm typically a happy person; I'm not good at processing emotions like these when I'm the one feeling them.
