Dreamer

I don't think I'm still sane anymore. Though I'm sure I feel better since last year..

Casualties.. Casualties.. Irritations.. Negativity.. Bad Decisions.. Blame.. Never ending Sadness.. Lost in Thought.. Dreaming.. Delusions.. and find yourself unable to wake up.

So.. uhh There's something... A lag-glitch maybe? Cause just now I went to my drafts to finish a chapter so I could end my day.. I only had ONE chapter and there were 15. I was confused when I clicked it.. I OPENED UP SOMEONE ELSE STORY. It's called vampire boarding school by pipi something and I thought I wrote it but there was no way I wrote something as such cause I don't do fanfics or vampire things and any protagonist female characters? None. So yeah.. watch out.

I wanted to watch k-drama so I went to my friend/classmate/tablemate who is a fan of it, she recommended me a good app to watch on.. NOW IM ADDICTED. Still.. kinda sad though... BUT THE DRAMA IS REALLLL AHAHAHHAHA! Occupied by comedy I’m gonna watch this like anime! °˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°

I sometimes forget that some wattpad stories I’m thinking about is mine, like “It begs my question, When is ‘that’ gonna update?” And I realize “Wait, oh, it’s a draft. MY draft..” I feel dumb.

Am I the only who feels bad for ACTUAL villains? Like their father is so toxic and pressuring.. the child is brainwashed to be successful! To become a villain because he just wanted to follow suit to his parents expectations.. it makes me feel bad for the villain, I don’t blame the Protagonist whoever unless they are apart of it, like adding salt to wounds.

My bff: Technoblade’s dead..
          My coping mechanism: Fake news?
          Me and them: [Watches video]
          Me: DON’T CRY- DON’T CRY WE CAN DO THIS-
          Them: I CRIED-

Your want some real life drama? Well I’ve got news for you! Go to any social platform, pick any person you may or may not know, scroll through the comments, if the comments has a ton of replies click it no hesitation then read as two or more parties try to fight each other!

Can anyone say Happy birthday for my bestie? I couldn’t come because I was shy.. he said it was fine but it’s really not! I’m filled with guilt.. such a bad friend I am... happy birthday my favorite lavender boy! 

Apparently yahoo in safari doesn’t work.. thanks apple.... I knew I should’ve stuck with Samsung.. or any android devices I had.. but instead I got an Apple iPad  That’s okay at least I can see better with this! Plus it has Japanese- Whooo! Just trying to verify an email is so damn hard I wonder what’s harder! Maybe the fact I’m bitter because I lost interest in drawing- push myself harder because the only affordable thing I can do next is knitting!! I’m just finding anything therapeutic drawing was my thing at first but now I lost it I’m pissed and I need something to calm down and knitting was the only thing that came to mind!! ( ˃̵⌓˂̵)