Happy New Year to everyone. And from the bottom of my heart, I hope that this will be the one in which dreams become reality and good people thrive.
Now... I've been missing for a long while. I'm very much aware of that, but honestly... a lot has happened since I graduated from college, most of it not good (at least from my perspective). Maybe one day I'll explain in detail why I deleted my work and the reason why I disappeared.
For the last two years, I'd spend hours staring at the screen trying to force myself to write, but nothing came. Part of me knows that it came from the expectations some people were having, which is why I never wanted anyone to find out that I was writing. But word spreads fast, and before I knew it most of my family and people I barely knew were aware of it. Probably it was the pressure they were putting on me and constantly asking me about the progress. I was forcing myself to work on the story even when I wasn't feeling like it. And maybe that's what led to a very strong burn-out (among other things).
In a way, I also think that I accepted as true what one of my cousins said about me; after all, she sounded so convincing when she said that everything that I do never comes to fruition.
I've been contemplating for a while if I should delete my account or not. However, I can't bring myself to do it. Perhaps because deep down I know that I might return to this one day, or maybe not.
Regardless, I felt like it would be nice to give a brief explanation of what happened (even if no one will care ) and wish everyone the start of a great year! I honestly think that this is the first time that I'm feeling optimist in a long while, so... I'll try to remain like this!
