I don't have anywhere else to get this is out but here I guess so here goes this year was very very rough and I thought it would be different but it was just hell on earth. If I could redo this year I would gladly do that yes all I did was make mistake, all I did was tell people I know how to do things but I didn't, yes I'm a horrible person and I deserve to die, and yes I'm just nothing but a mistake and a waste of time. If I can hurt the girl in the mirror I see I would destroy her because she is useless. No one should feel sorry for me because being sad all the time is my issue unless I break my leg no one should feel bad for me. I was deeply talked about and everyday I waited to hear a new gossip about me and than when I find out my own section said these things all I want to do is get out of band. Yes it's ridiculous but the one group you thought would never talk about you is talking about you, how do you feel? Disappointed crappy anger what do I do? Nothing I'm lost and I have no one I will write more when I get back
