Bluephenex

U can Read My Storys to if U Like haha  I make My own Awesome Storys Out of My Time when I can :))

When you can't tell if the extreme social disconnect is from the autism or the major depressive disorder 

I dream to be loved
          To be held
          To be cared for
          To be placed on a pedestal so I may be her equal,
          I want to talk to her about nothing and everything
          I want to see her smile once more 
          I want her to trace the scars on my body like the ponts of a map
          And to to hear her voice
          To touch her light brown skin and jet black hair
          Just to see it all again would be euphoria
          Even just make her laugh 
          I want her to know that i feel my stomach in knots around my heart when i get a text from her,
          But Aros has struck me and not her,
          She is not Atlanta chasing the gold apples that I have thrown, 
          
          Still though
          She won't love me
          But she won't leave me
          She stays in my mind like a song with no melody
          
          Her eyes make the stars look dull 
          And the fain red scars fade a bit more...
          
          
          Sorry I'm love sick

I'm going deaf and I'm horrified.
          
          
          Hey friends. I know I haven't been posting alot lately and here's why.
          
          I'll start about three months ago when I got some bad earacheing. I didn't think much of it at the time and just continued with my day. Thought maybe I need a brake from the headphones. So I did. The aching didn't stop and after a couple weeks of ignoring it I expected that I might have had an ear infection probably on both sides. It wasn't a big deal, I get them alot. Use some drops and allergy meds and move on. The pain got easier to manage and eventually I became sort of numb to it. I still felt the occasional jult in my ear but I just tended forget about it. 
          
          Fast forward two months, and I'm getting migranes, nasua, dizziness. I just reasoned it as allergies, sprinkled with seasonal depression. Jump up 3 weeks, everything is getting worse. The earacheing is back and a lot worse, the migraines are makeing the spinning in my head and the nausea worse. 
          
          Then comes the hearing loss. I started to notice it first when my math teacher got hard to her. Partly because she walked around the room and had a tendency to mumble. But it normally wasn't an issue. 
          
          Over two weeks there was a dramatic decrease in my hearing. I had to start reading lips and having people repeat themselves upto 4 times. 
          I went to the doctor. He said that the infection was causing almost all my issues. 
          
          They can treat the infection, but my dad and I can hardly afford the medicine so my mom is helping. 
          
          The infection caused permanent damage to my inner ear and my hearing. Helping with my infection can only slow down my already there hearing issues.

I GOT A GIRLFRIEND! AND THATS GIRLFRIEND WITH NO SPACE IN THE MIDDLE I HAVE A HUMAN PARSONS WHO I HAVE  AGREED AND CONSENTED TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH! FREEKS YES!

Anyone else just make up extremely complicated sope operas in there heads to help go to sleep?

@ds1count do you think the 'in the hights' fandom is going to blow up again after the film release?

Also happy 9th day if ramadan  to all, I forgot to say it earlier but none the less, idk if any of you practice islam or not but still.

I think I want to write an og story but I need opinions. It would be
          Historical fiction
          Lgbt
          Female protagonist
          Ect. Thoughts?

I made a book of useless facts I've been uplodeing very day for 9 days...... basically I have no life and I'm telling you to read a run of useless information