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I heard Tia doing a thing for switchboard at superdrug and maybe I just haven't been sleeping but it was very surreal because I can never tell if when celebrities do ads at superdrug if its actually them or AI/a voice actor that sounds like them
Whatever shes alive thats the benchmark great job babe im proyd of you
Actually starting to plan out a fic for MHA- which may or may not actually be published over the summer at this rate- has made me fall back in love with the planning process and writing process. You really do sometimes need to stray a little to come back to what matters.
I'm serious. This is the same spark I felt with early UK book and V2 and 3 prep in 2022. Every to do list doesnt feel like a chore. Im excited to do what I have to do. I'm looking forward to it.
That said, I am still terrified.
The MHA fandom is very different. I've never touched the omegaverse from the writing standpoint (shockingly). I'm nervous about the reception.
But I think its gonna go okay!
I am one questionable day and a tequilla shot away from hauling me, my cringy little omegaverse MHA plot bunnies and quite possibly a drag race work or two of mine off to AO3.
I'm going to be 21 soon. I have given so much of my life to to this fandom and too much of my heart.
Viv's death fundamentally changed my relationship to this fandom in a way that made me extremely hesitant to keep going.
I can't seem to be able to- no matter what I do- touch my books ever since. Not for editing. Not for writing. Not for planning. Not for love nor money.
I will end this by saying a few things:
-We all know those tiktok "MHA boys react..." slideshows were meant to be preference books. COME ON MAN.
-My top five, in order, are Shoto, Tenya, Katsuki, Izuku and Aizawa. Yeah yeah I know the jokes write themselves. Fucking look at me.
-As for my ships? I feel unsafe divulging that!
So yeah!
I need a nap! And possibly a few ideas!
Even if I do nothing with my plot bunnies. Or even if I do. Drag race remains my home base. After all- whose birthdays are tattooed on me?
That said, I felt something I wasn't sure I would ever feel again when I got into the MHA fandom. And that feeling wouldn't exist if I didn't have the RPDR fandom and the memories I've made within it as a reference point.
Finally. And this is where I say it out loud for the first time. Getting into the My Hero Academia fandom has given me a new little pond to swim in that doesn't feel as unstable.
Maybe because its fiction. Maybe because it touches on a few themes that resonate with me. Maybe because beginning to watch it after Viv died gave me something else to think of before I could entirely lose my mind in grief and you KNOW how hard I crashed. Its given me ideas. The sort of genuine excitement in a fandom I haven't had in a very long time. I even have a top five. And yes, I DO wonder how the hell they'd interact with their RPDR counterparts and GIGGLE.
So no. This isn't a goodbye to the drag race fandom. I don't think I can ever say goodbye. Not after this long. This isn't me cancelling my projects. This is me saying something I've been thinking about for months.
I think I'm considering going multifandom.
How old were you when you realized Osana Najimi's name in Yandere Simulator is a pun on the word osananajimi, which means childhood friend.
Because I was today years old.
Yeah okay Im like 90% my dad and I are going no-low contact with my aunt and uncle.
S h i t.
Hey so fun fact I never skip Like a River Runs because it reminds me of Viv.
Bit of context. Last night, I had a phone call with my sister. I'll spare you the details but it went bad. I don't think our relationship will remain unchanged by it. I've been in bits ever since.
So I have my playlist on right? Eclectic fucking thing.
After something sad and self pitying, right when I was looking for something even more sad to listen to, Like a River Runs came on and I'm chosing to believe that in some way, that's a certain someone running interference.
I dont know how to feel today. And thats okay. Because I forgot at first.
Im not sad like I was last year.
Its just weird.
But I did wear green.
Recommend if you wanna feel close to her today.
Take it as it comes. Be gentle with yourself. Try not to remember you're still kinda pissed at her lol.
…and if I SAID I had an absolute CRACK idea for a My Hero Academia Mamma Mia AU inspired by having watched the film on my flight home?
Then what.
Also yes I do in fact have a top five already that is well and truly my secondary fandom x
Well.
My essays are done.
Time to panic until the vs the world finale airs.
Calling it now, I'm going to be annoyed.
Seven years in sixteen days.
What do I say to that?
Where do I begin?
How has it been closer to ten years than five since I embarked on the most memorable part of my teenage years?
Its still insane to me that you technically got all of them. I started when I was 13 years old, 9 months. I am currently 20 years old, 9 months.
You have seen me grow up. Been a part of my story through my decision to stay, through my graduation from middle AND high school, my cutting off of my mother, my enterance into University, my decision to conciously observe Judaism, my first tattoos, my grief for Viv.
You know me better than my mother.
I will never claim to understand why the universe lined up this way. In this configuration. But I keep coming back to this. No matter what else I have going on. Its too big of a part of my life. Of my story. Of what made me me. I have a very deep love for the show. For my books. For those of you who have let an autistic kid raised on the internet be weird and caffiene addicted and a dry little gremlin for nearly a decade.
Thank you is insufficient.
I learned that the hardest way possible when I wrote my toasts in the UK book preface.
But I cannot currently think of anything better.
So I'll leave before I get all schmaltzy. Or. Even more than I already have. That's a yiddish word by the way. Meaning overly sentimental. Which by now we have learned I am very prone to.
You know what I have been through. Some of you who began speaking to me when I was fourteen and fragile became close friends.
All of you have watched me waver, solidify, drift, come back, fall apart and come back together.
You watched me love and lose.
You watched me grow up.
How its been seven years for most of you, closer to six for others, I have no idea. Its gone by very fast hasn't it?