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Okay so I'm finally able to think about other books (not sure how to feel about that) and now I have a few thoughts:
          
          -How do I work Farrah being on twitch into her books like genuinely HOW
          
          Ok. Maybe for now its just that one. But seriously. HOW. 
          
          

So fun fact about me 
          
          I find it really hard to get into anime because I find it very overstimulating and more recently, I've heard that a lot of anime can be needlessly...icky, and that some degree of fanservice is kinda unavoidable. 
          
          All this is to say:
          I'm starting My Hero Academia soon because I've heard that it doesn't have as much of the things that turn me off of anime in it. 

It'll be my great great granddad's birthday on sunday. 
          
          It'll also be a week. 
          
          How the hell has it nearly been a week?

I've had two signs so far, one for each contender. One lives very close to me (when I'm in the UK, that is) and the other lives very close to where Betty and Bernard lived. 

I stood in the shower who's proud

On all the docs and spreadsheet and in the preface, I have "[HQ]" as a placeholder. I'd like to know who she is. 
          
          However, it's likely you won't until the prefaces go back up, possibly until the first chapters go up with them. 
          
          The bond I will be developing with her, and probably any subsequent non-tattoo squad preference queens, will be entirely too fragile for me to tell anyone much of anything about it. 
          
          I think you could only really attempt to understand what I mean if you read the prefaces when they were first released. 
          
          But the fact of the matter is that you guys cannot possibly understand what this has done to me (and potentially other writers). 
          
          I'm experiencing physical symptoms. I haven't showered in two days since, unbeknownst to me, the last few hours where I wasn't, quite literally, living a nightmare. It is a reoccuring nightmare I've had; losing any member of my UK or US top three. As you can imagine, I am in my own unique brand of hell. 
          
          Beginning my search for whoever the hell "HQ" will wind up being is taking so much willpower. I need to push myself into this or it will never get done. That said, I'm going to take as much time as I need to process and heal. Do you know how I'll be doing that? Through prep and writing for "HQ". She won't know it until/if she ever reads her preface letter, but she will have pulled me through the lowest point in my entire writing career. 

12.22 GMT; 7.22 EST. 
          
          I was asleep when it happened. 
          
          I was asleep. 

I feel both dread and desperation are accurate assessments about how I feel returning to the uk. 
          

The Kübler-Ross model lied to us. That's it. That's the post. 

Right well who wants to make Tati the honorary season 2 winner