BoHoDyke_27

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In case anyone wanted to know how utterly fucked my relationship with my sister is, the Noah Kahan songs on it are:
          	
          	Willing and Able
          	Orbiter
          	Paid Time Off
          	Great Divide
          	Haircut
          	Stick Season
          	Dashboard
          	
          	:D

BoHoDyke_27

this message may be offensive 
In case anyone wanted to know how utterly fucked my relationship with my sister is, the Noah Kahan songs on it are:
          
          Willing and Able
          Orbiter
          Paid Time Off
          Great Divide
          Haircut
          Stick Season
          Dashboard
          
          :D

BoHoDyke_27

Noah Kahan is for the girls who dissociate while grieving the relationship they had, the one they wish they had/deserved to have and the relationship they did not have SIMULTANEOUSLY with their sibling(s) and/or parent(s) over alcohol

BoHoDyke_27

I heard Tia doing a thing for switchboard at superdrug and maybe I just haven't been sleeping but it was very surreal because I can never tell if when celebrities do ads at superdrug if its actually them or AI/a voice actor that sounds like them
          
          Whatever shes alive thats the benchmark great job babe im proyd of you

BoHoDyke_27

Actually starting to plan out a fic for MHA- which may or may not actually be published over the summer at this rate- has made me fall back in love with the planning process and writing process. You really do sometimes need to stray a little to come back to what matters.

BoHoDyke_27

I'm serious. This is the same spark I felt with early UK book and V2 and 3 prep in 2022. Every to do list doesnt feel like a chore. Im excited to do what I have to do. I'm looking forward to it. 
            
            That said, I am still terrified. 
            
            The MHA fandom is very different. I've never touched the omegaverse from the writing standpoint (shockingly). I'm nervous about the reception. 
            
            But I think its gonna go okay!
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BoHoDyke_27

I am one questionable day and a tequilla shot away from hauling me, my cringy little omegaverse MHA plot bunnies and quite possibly a drag race work or two of mine off to AO3. 
          
          I'm going to be 21 soon. I have given so much of my life to to this fandom and too much of my heart. 
          
          Viv's death fundamentally changed my relationship to this fandom in a way that made me extremely hesitant to keep going. 
          
          I can't seem to be able to- no matter what I do- touch my books ever since. Not for editing. Not for writing. Not for planning. Not for love nor money.

BoHoDyke_27

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I will end this by saying a few things:
            
            -We all know those tiktok "MHA boys react..." slideshows were meant to be preference books. COME ON MAN. 
            -My top five, in order, are Shoto, Tenya, Katsuki, Izuku and Aizawa. Yeah yeah I know the jokes write themselves. Fucking look at me. 
            -As for my ships? I feel unsafe divulging that! 
            
            
            So yeah!
            
            I need a nap! And possibly a few ideas!
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BoHoDyke_27

Even if I do nothing with my plot bunnies. Or even if I do. Drag race remains my home base. After all- whose birthdays are tattooed on me?
            
            That said, I felt something I wasn't sure I would ever feel again when I got into the MHA fandom. And that feeling wouldn't exist if I didn't have the RPDR fandom and the memories I've made within it as a reference point.
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BoHoDyke_27

Finally. And this is where I say it out loud for the first time. Getting into the My Hero Academia fandom has given me a new little pond to swim in that doesn't feel as unstable. 
            
            Maybe because its fiction. Maybe because it touches on a few themes that resonate with me. Maybe because beginning to watch it after Viv died gave me something else to think of before I could entirely lose my mind in grief and you KNOW how hard I crashed. Its given me ideas. The sort of genuine excitement in a fandom I haven't had in a very long time. I even have a top five. And yes, I DO wonder how the hell they'd interact with their RPDR counterparts and GIGGLE. 
            
            So no. This isn't a goodbye to the drag race fandom. I don't think I can ever say goodbye. Not after this long. This isn't me cancelling my projects. This is me saying something I've been thinking about for months. 
            
            I think I'm considering going multifandom.
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BoHoDyke_27

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Hey so fun fact I never skip Like a River Runs because it reminds me of Viv. 
          
          Bit of context. Last night, I had a phone call with my sister. I'll spare you the details but it went bad. I don't think our relationship will remain unchanged by it. I've been in bits ever since. 
          
          So I have my playlist on right? Eclectic fucking thing. 
          
          After something sad and self pitying, right when I was looking for something even more sad to listen to, Like a River Runs came on and I'm chosing to believe that in some way, that's a certain someone running interference.