Hey guys, Its Bonnie-Senpai. I might not post or do stuff like that for a while (cause I so do that.) My grandpa, has cancer. Today, I found out that he only has a few weeks left to live. Doctors can't do a thing. His body is slowly shutting down. This is effecting me really badly. He means almost everything to me and I can't picture a day without him. I'm a crying mess and I'm hardly getting sleep.
This doesn't help the fact that my biggest dream was crushed, I wanted him to see me graduate High School. I wanted him to come watch me play volleyball for the school. I wanted him to see me play Saxophone with the band. I wanted to do so much more with him. I'm slowly starting to have many regrets of things I didn't do with him, like his last camping trip.
He wants me to be strong, but I just can't bring myself to do it. My usual bubbly self is starting to go away, I don't talk loudly anymore, and I hardly show a real smile, I was looking at the mirror making fake smiles. It doesn't help that one of my friends also recently tried to kill himself.
~Until Next Time~
Bonnie-Senpai, out.