BonsaiXz
Is anyone still on this website?? Jesus it's been years. I hope you're all doing better for yourselves, we were all so messed up back then lmao
BonsaiXz
BonsaiXz
Hey guys and gals! I’m off on a trip so, I won’t be posting stories for now! But I love you all! I hope you all are doing great!
Inactive11111111
Hey friend its Ori Shade just wanted to say hi
BonsaiXz
Aww! Thank you!
BonsaiXz
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M’kay sorry for the lack of updates. Shit has been going on and no lie I don’t give a shot what happens anymore. I could die and be totally chill. My crush loves someone else. Even though I helped him way more than her, he loves her. I hate myself, I just wish I could find my forever lover. I hate myself so goddamn much. I started to do self harm and I’m not gonna stop. I want my dream to come true.
SugarySoda2
@BonsaiXz I may be a random stranger but please don't let yourself down, if your crush loves someone else then move on. I care about you as a person and please do not do self harm as people cared about you. Don't hate yourself. I think you are a wonderful person and I know you will do great things. Love takes time and I know you will truly find your soulmate. Self harm is not going to help. Your dream will come true, it takes patience and time. You will get through this, I beileve you. If you need someone to talk to, I am always here to listen and help the best way I can.
BonsaiXz
Lol this is like almost the worst yet weirdest I’ve been. I want to kill myself but at the same time, I’m so chillaxed.
BonsaiXz
Hello, thank you everyone. I’m not gonna do it. A friend helped me out of it and I’m feeling way better. Thank you, again!
_Maximoo6_
@BonsaiXz oh thank god! You scared me out of my skin when you said you where! Happy that friend helped you the way they did
BonsaiXz
Hey everyone. I’m sorry but, I can’t do it anymore. I want to die so badly. And now that everything is seemingly falling apart, I can’t do anything but just do it. I love you all! Every. Single. One of you. If there are any last writing requests for you guys, tell me now. I’ll write them and then, when I’m finished, I’ll do it. I love you all.
_Maximoo6_
@BonsaiXz dude you have so much to live for! I know right now seems impossible and thinking that death is the only relise but it's not! You have us to talk to and if you dont have a therapist then go get one! I have small group and they help alot. I hope you dont do this to yourself. We all care to much and the grief of you dying will haunt your friend, family and me forever dude.. please dont make a choice you might regret. I'll dm you the suicide hotline in a sec but please.. dont do it
MyNameIsBlueberryJam
@BonsaiXz Please don't , I know it's hard , I've been in that place but it gets better , it really did for me and i hope it does for you
BonsaiXz
I need a man like Sal Fisher in my life. Not the serial killer part, but everything else.
BonsaiXz
I hate getting my heart broken over and over! I just want to find the guy who will love me for the rest of our lives as I will to him! I hate getting hurt! I hate it!
_Maximoo6_
@BonsaiXz dude I understand how you feel. It sucks alot and sometimes the pain feels unbearable,but , things will get better. I would suggest doing things that would distract you like doing art or walking around the botanical garden( if you have one). Try taking a walk to think about it. Clearing your head. Ask yourself Was he good for me? Was our relationship good? Did we communicate offen? Different questions would be asked for different situations. Hope you feel better and if you need to, Talk to me!
LostCinder
Getting hurt sucks ass, but it does get better. A few years ago I was rejected, manipulated and used and I truly believed it would always be like that. Things really did get better, I found friends and realized that I didn’t need to find that special someone. I’m still recovering from extreme self hatred but it’s getting better. I know things will get better for you too, life isn’t always terrible