BowieandDepp

I don't care if anyone sees this but I need to get it off my chest. I fear I'm in love with my friend AND his fiance. What the fuck. 

I've just lost my two best friends I literally grew up with, that I've known since actual birth. They're baptized Jehovah's Witnesses and I'm "bad association". Religion has officially torn apart every good thing I've ever had in life. Sorry for dumping this on you few random strangers who probably followed when I was writing either my Bowie or Depp story but I just really needed to tell someone. Awful thing about no longer having my best friends is that I now have no one to turn to. Thanks for reading. 

Where the fuck do men get the audicty to treat their children like pawns in a game of chess

My teeth hurt. 
          
          
          
          (I wish my braces could come off sooner than two years from now) 

RIP David Bowie
          His music changed me forever, may his soul be at peace. 

I wish I could experience feminimity the way men do, without it being expected of me. I also wish I could have the courage to come out to my family but honestly I'll probably wait until I'm living across the world to say anything. 

Happy Birthday to David Bowie!!

I'm already so fucking tired of Christmas music... Can't it be spring already?

So I know hardly anybody sees these but something about putting it out into the world makes me feel better... I was finally cleaning my room and I found the suicide note I wrote last week on the floor. I have great ups and downs where for weeks I'll feel great and nothing will bother me but then I start thinking and I go down for days, months and it's terrible. I've written so many suicide notes that I'm embarrassed to say, I tried getting help but it didn't work. The only thing that seems to calm me down enough is going out and living life, doing something other than school work or cleaning. And, no, I don't really feel like talking about it because that always seems to make it worse and right now I'm in a fairly good head space right now despite finding that note. 
          
          Anyway thanks for reading, I just needed someone to know - whether I know them or not. 

So I've just discovered that it is not common (and is seen as wrong) to kiss your parents on the lips. I have a healthy, happy relationship with both of my parents (which is pretty rare nowadays) and have kissed them my whole life. Do any of you kiss your mom and/or dad?