So I know hardly anybody sees these but something about putting it out into the world makes me feel better... I was finally cleaning my room and I found the suicide note I wrote last week on the floor. I have great ups and downs where for weeks I'll feel great and nothing will bother me but then I start thinking and I go down for days, months and it's terrible. I've written so many suicide notes that I'm embarrassed to say, I tried getting help but it didn't work. The only thing that seems to calm me down enough is going out and living life, doing something other than school work or cleaning. And, no, I don't really feel like talking about it because that always seems to make it worse and right now I'm in a fairly good head space right now despite finding that note.
Anyway thanks for reading, I just needed someone to know - whether I know them or not.
